Thursday, January 03, 2013
Sometimes I lose sight of the reasons why I am even on this journey. When I try hard and it seems like I am just going nowhere, I get into a funk. Sometimes when I am elbow deep into a bag of chips the reasons why I am trying to succeed on this journey hit me...I was so close to being diabetic the last time I went to the doctor. I don't want to have diabetes. I want to be able to move easily without all the pain and pressure of trying to get up, etc. I don't want to live in fear of whether or not I exceed the weight limit for something or if I will be able to fit somewhere because of my size. I would love to be healthy and not be on medication. I really would like to be able to conceive, which is something I have really struggled with and have a lot of guilt with. At times when I feel discouraged and wonder why in the world do I even try, I need to sit down and look at the reasons why so that I can continue to move forward.