Thursday, January 03, 2013
hi I am a person that keeps everything to myself. I don't share the good or bad in my life with anyone. Then I joined spark people, I watched as people shared their stories with others. I saw so many success stories that I became excited that I too could be a success story.
Then I met my boyfriend who may i say is fantastic. He is always trying to find out how I feel about things, At first I resisted and didn't disclose anything, then little by little I let myself feel, it made me cry a lot. I was uncomfortable feeling and acknowledging how I felt. I wanted to continue to bury them deep down where they couldn't bother me. But he said this is not healthy, you can not live with out feelings, let them out, let them hurt then you will heal in the end you will feel better. So I tried.
I cry more, sometimes I hurt, but the good thing is I discovered a new world where I let people in and they help me deal with stuff I had trouble dealing alone. and I have learned to listen and be there when people needed my strengths as well. Its a new way for me, and I am treading with care.
I dressed drably, as i was told all my life that the best I could do is cover my fat. Nothing I could do would make me look pretty. Well in the words of a very wise man, "there is no such thing as an ugly person" Dress nicely with clothes that fit and look nice on you. You will feel pretty and therefore you will be pretty.
He has taught me that I am not what I thought but a real person with feelings, thoughts and am as pretty as anyone else. And the very best thing is he loves me, for me, now as i am.
Nothing can beat having the support of someone you love.