Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I was doing really well and then I had to change shift at work and I thought that's where it changed, but then I took a good look at everything and realized for the first week or two on my new shift I was still going strong. then I realized why I quit working out. A boy. Instead of working out after work I was hanging out with him and he would say how great I looked and what not so I felt better about my appearance and quit working towards a healthier thinner me. when he changed shifts I actually went back to working out for a while and I was doing great til I got put on 14 hr shifts then everyone at work quit going to the gym anytime not at work or cleaning the house was for sleep.
But I see what I did. I can't help the hours I work but I can decide what is important to me. And not hating my body and being healthy, those are important. I realized what I did. And I'm really unhappy about where I'm at. Things have been bad lately things I can't control and I need to make a change in something I have control over. So this is it. I will change how I am, I will change how I see myself I will be stronger I will be healthy.