Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Yep, that's been my thought for the past few weeks.
I'll be 39 in March, and that's pretty darn close to 40.
When I was a teen, living at home, my dad had a weight machine. It was mostly used as a place to store clean laundry, but it was there, and set up to use. Someone, at some point, stuck a bumper sticker on the machine that said "Pushing 40 is Exercise Enough". My mum swears that since that day, my dad never used that machine again. I have my doubts about how much he used it before the sticker was added.
I've been overweight, and at times obese, since I was a pre-teen. I come from a family of overweight/obese folk. For years I didn't even realize that I was overweight/obese. I just thought I was the size I was supposed to be.
A few years ago-make that almost 7 years ago, how time flies- I decided to challenge myself to lose 20 lbs. I did it, and rewarded myself with a new wardrobe. I then went on to lose another 40 lbs, and I was at my ideal BMI weight, close to the low end of my healthy range.
Then, 2 years ago, family situations caused me a lot of stress, and I was (looking back, vision is 20/20) depressed. I could barely force myself to get up and go to work 5 days a week.When I did go, I barely "worked" at all, barely meeting the minimum standards to keep my job. Some days I didn't even bother, I called in sick, and slept the day away. Needless to say I was not focussing on healthy eating or being active. I gained back 20 lbs. (Not to mention having meetings with my supervisor about my productivity, adding to my stress by worrying about whether I'd get to keep my job.)
I decided last year to "get a grip" and get a handle on this 20 lb "slip". I spent the WHOLE YEAR "trying" to lose 20 lbs. Trying, but only losing/gaining the same 5 lbs over and over.
So, this year I'm not going to "try" to lose that weight. I'm going to lose it. I've set an attainable goal. I've joined the "January Jumpstart challenge" to give me a bit of a kick in the butt to start off.
Now I just need to do it.
This is going to be my journal. It may not be consistent. It may not be pretty.
It will be honest, and it will be me being me.
So, here I go.