Wednesday, January 02, 2013
So, big news is that we are expecting our third child. Yay! So, it's supposed to be a great time and enjoy it and just roll with it. Well, it is supposed to be right? I feel more stressed right now, then when i'm trying to just maintain or lose a couple of pounds! I know that there will be weight gain. I realize that there is healthy weight gain and baby weight gain and weight just gained. I get it. However, it's more stressing trying to just gain healthy weight in these last 3 months than losing the 60 + lbs i've lost over 2 years! I will talk to the dr about this and just do the lighter exercises and make sure to eat extremely healthy and not over due it. But, it just seems more stressful bc I don't want to feel like i'm depriving the baby. Anyway, it's still great news. I just think why can't we just have a baby and not worry about the weight. But, with my first two i gained 50-60 lbs. I really want to keep the gaining under 35 lbs. Maybe it'll happen....I hope so anyway...
How many of you struggled with this? How did you handle it? Did you just say forget it and let it ride? Did you keep stressing about it? Give me any ideas you can...I just can't keep stressing about it, I will make myself crazy bc your body will change over the next few months, you will gain weight, these are things that have to be accepted, but it's hard when you've put in all this work and time, and even made goals you didn't think you could only to be told that you can't do it for the next few months (dr said no spin, spin was my cardio heaven). walking and yoga and light weights if wanted...just nothing over head...and walking....really? i got to where i was running.....running! ME! never would've thought that i would run a little more than 3 miles in under 35 minutes! (34:10 to be exact). Nope...no running...just walking and yoga/pilates and light weights.
I am excited to be adding an addition to the family, to be given another gift. it's just my mental state of vainity that i'm struggling with. then there's this small voice saying "WHAT IF" what if i dont get back in shape, what if i can't do it again, what if i can't can't can't. i just hope my determination will kick into gear and i'll lose it and get stronger and keep going with my new changes before this. maybe that's what it is. maybe i'm afraid of going back to where i was. maybe that is why i'm stressing out. going back to not being active, not being healthy, or not feeling comfortable in my skin.
any other ladies felt this way....maybe a little?