Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I have definitely made the commitment for the journey of letting go of excess weight. I don't need it. That part is clear.
I am on the right journey but I see so many paths. I have tried so many ways and I always end up back here looking at the options. So I am now walking down the road of blogging and SP to see where it goes.
I am scared. I am panicking. I do not want to fail again. I do not want to give up any of my food friends. I want to make healthier choices. I want to think about something other than food. Perhaps a lobotomy would work. No, I like my brain for many other things I do.
It's a beautiful day. The sun is different in winter. There is a crispness, a finer edge to everything I see. Summer is blurrier. The night frost never melted today and now the sun is already low in the sky. I hug my rotund stomach and bless it. Good bye nice tummy, I cannot carry your weight any longer.