Wednesday, January 02, 2013
As I thought about the holiday break quickly coming to a close yesterday, I found myself anxious, grumpy, and hungry. I was dreading digging back into the load of projects I brought home to work on over the break. I was cranky that my much-enjoyed time with sons and husband would be done when the last of us went to bed last night. I just was not happy about it, and I found myself reach for food.
I realized as I ate that hunger wasn't what I was feeling. Instead, I was wanting to experience the tastes of things I liked. I was still grumpy and a little anxious, but hunger was not driving my caloric intake. Rather, not wanting the wonderful time off with family to end and worrying about the work load I face this spring kept my hands feeding my mouth. At some point in those few hours, I realized cause and effect process I was experiencing that fueled my emotional eating episode.
Today, I'm back on track and have begun tackling that bag of projects and returning to our normal family routine. I'm thankful to have realized the full scope of my thoughts and actions in a more objective way than before. I think being fully present in what I'm doing this year is what will help me make positive choices my habits.