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Bittersweet

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Hello all my Sparkfriends! I hope this blog finds you happy, healthy and optimistic in the New Year.

For me, 2012 was a good year with a very bittersweet ending. I had to say good-bye to my best four-legged buddy on Christmas Eve. I was glad to see him go peacefully but so very saddened that he was no longer going to be my ‘shadow’. I am doing better than expected and believe it is from my knowing this was coming and having told him good-bye and other things I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to say and do for him had he gone unexpectedly. If you’re not a pet lover it will sound weird and strange but I know many of you out there that love your fur-babies and totally understand where I’m coming from. He was 15 and I'd had him since June of 2000...he lived a good, long life and he was my sweet heart.

Right before my sweet boy had started getting sick, the beginning of December, I had met a guy. He is turning out to be kind, thoughtful and…normal. He is health-conscious; going to the gym several times a week and making decent eating choices. That’s a plus; you know it’s easier when you don’t have someone tempting you with bad selections all of the time. We’ll see where this goes…it’s been a while since I’ve dated or had a serious relationship and to be honest, I’m not in any hurry to change my lifestyle to accommodate someone else. That’s why we’re taking it slow.

I haven’t exercised in almost a month. And I miss it. I had begun December with good intentions and I think I lasted through the 10th. After my dog got sick, even though he was on medication and the vet and I were hoping for the best, I just chilled with him at home, wanting to keep him calm and comfy. Since he’s been gone, I’ve thought about working out…but just haven’t had any follow-through. He was my routine and now, I need a new one with exercise being the priority.

As far as food choices and my weight, I haven’t done anything horrible. I had some fast food a couple of times and I’ve gained five pounds but that’s my typical fluctuating number. I’ll get back on track. The mild depression/sadness from missing my boy has paid off by keeping me from marathon snacking. It’s just the opposite in fact; I get to the point where I am starving and remember I haven’t eaten all day. But that will change; back to working 5 days a week will force me into a schedule again.

I did manage to attempt a one day challenge last Friday. It was to do squats in my downtime and total them up at the end of the day. I was at work and had written ‘SQUATS’ on a sticky note to remind me to do some every time I sat down at or got up from my desk after stepping away for whatever reason. Well…needless to say, I didn’t manage one. My heart just wasn’t in it…that was four days after I lost my boy. I almost went back to the challenge online and posted “does it count that I didn’t do squat all day?” but I didn’t think they’d find the humor in that. Yes, I said in the beginning of this paragraph I ‘attempted’ a one day challenge…the attempt was me writing down the reminder to do squats…even if that’s as far as I got.

So I hope this first week of 2013 brings me motivation to exercise. I have the tools I need…so I’ll keep you informed.

As usual, thanks for reading my blog and have an awesome day.
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IRP1114 1/22/2013 9:22AM

    So sorry about your fur baby. I hope you are finding your way back to healthy routines now.
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ALWYS-LKN-UP 1/2/2013 5:22PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your fur baby! Don't be too hard on yourself for not being motivated - it'll come back to you in its own time - allow time for your heart to heal a little.

I'm happy for you that you have a new friend in your life & that he has some healthy habits that you both share - that is SO helpful!

I wish you all the best that 2013 can bring you & I hope your heart gets less heavy as time goes on!

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REALLY_ROBIN 1/2/2013 2:30PM

  So sorry to hear about your loss....it is definitely something you feel for a long time. I am happy to hear about the new guy....I think it's best any how to take things slow and see if he really does fit in your life. Reggie and I (BF for 3 months)....are getting into healthy routines and I'm getting back to being regular about exercise, too. I'm so glad to be starting out the New Year with you and thanks for all the encouragement last year as well!!!

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LOWFATFOODIE 1/2/2013 1:24PM

    So sorry to hear you lost your fur baby... time is all I can prescribe for that loss.
It sounds like the rest of your world is on track for a good year. As you said, you have the tools... take steps, baby steps if needed to just start the ball rolling. Soon enough it will be easier to be back in your healthy routine.

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