Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I've come to realize that I have to change my attitude about my own importance, if I'm going to succeed at my goals.
So from now on, I'm number one.
For years, I've found it easier to be self-sacrificing than to stand up for myself. It's easier to be "nice" and do far more than my share of the work than it is to make space for myself, insist that what I want is important, and risk being perceived as "the b*tch."
But the thing is, my family is more than willing to give me the space I need. They aren't the ones who were holding me to that standard; I was.
It's okay for me to prioritize my own needs, to make sure there is room for my workouts, to have goals that are my own. I don't need my family to be 100% behind everything I do--hubby is completely perplexed by my need to have long-term goals like an Iron Man, but I don't have to justify why I feel like that. It's okay for me just to feel like that, because different people are motivated by different things.
If I don't make my goals a top priority, they easy fall through the cracks of a busy life. So I'm keeping them on top.
Because in the long run, it's like the oxygen mask in an airplane. The instructions always say to put on your own mask first before assisting others. If you don't, you could lose consciousness and be useless to anyone. If I don't take care of myself first, I could easily become incapable of helping others. I don't want that.