I am besieged
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Happy New Year. Must be a sarcasm when said to me right now. I try hard not to rock the boat. I am the last person you can expect to be confrontational. And I tend to be an optimist. But sometimes, ya gotta SCREAM!
I tried accommodation. I tried gracefully "getting over" the affronts. I even tried ignoring them. I tried handling these things privately, considerately. No change. So now I am trying anger and embarrassment -- being publicly, loudly angry with the offenders -- I am angry; I am the one embarrassed! But I will NOT put up with this disrespect.
Those witnessing my anger are those I consider to be friends; they have also witnessed my toleration of past offenses. So I have nothing to lose, huh? Either they stand with me, or they don't care enough for me to say to the offender(s) with me that they also think the disrespectful behavior has to stop. In which case, they aren't worth much as friends. And I can stop giving as much as I do to them.
This "happy" new year, I am not going to be so accommodating. I value myself. "The world values you as you value yourself"; and I have to start acting it out and demanding that I be treated better. Right now, I am starting with rejection of poor treatment.