Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I have to admit...I have been a little down in the dumps about weight loss lately. I'm sure you have all seen me rant and rant and rant on here time and time again about this weight loss stagnancy. I'm supposed to have a metabolic test done, but I can't afford the stupid thing. Why can't I lose weight now? I have stayed committed for 7 months, and I can't see that it's done me any good at all. I finally settled down this week to yet another new diet. I'm afraid to step on the scale...so afraid. I'm beginning to feel that this stupid weight is what I'm destined to carry around the rest of my life. Why can I not even lose 10 pounds? I haven't shown ANY weight loss at all since June. I work out consistently, and even over the holidays, I behaved almost 100% with my food choices. Am I never to even let one "bad" thing slip into my mouth? I haven't had a single coke in DAYS and I still feel just as bloated and fat as ever...and it's not even close to TOM. I want to set goals, but what is the point? I will not meet them. Yeah, I have made positive life changes, but why can't I reap the benefits of the one single thing that got me motivated to change in the first place? I'm tired of all the weight loss gimmicks, and I just want to know the truth as it fits my body. And I can't find it. I'm beginning to think that it is just in my genes or predestined for me to remain like this.
Thanks for listening to me vent.