Wednesday, January 02, 2013
It's working much better for me to record in the A.M. about yesterday.
I am very grateful for the time I had to spend a quiet day at home. I managed to get in my 10,000 steps and eat healthy and stay in my calorie range.
I did 19 videos from my mentor to help heal. I finished the Root and Sacral and Personal Power Chakra healing and started the Heart Chakra healing. I hit on some core issues because I got in touch with some intense emotions. Most people label these intense emotions as bad and then do something to repress the feelings. My drug of choice has always been food.
Now that I have healed a lot of past grievances around my relationship with food and myself, i am eating consciously and I no longer feel the need to beat myself up. The self-sabotage desires are gone. It feels really amazing. I need to stay committed to the healing process to continue to grow and heal.
I really noticed that my ability to stay present and grounded has increased significantly in the last couple of days. I have always gravitated toward the spiritual, but without the grounded aspect it's impossible to stay present with whatever is happening.
Fear is the only reason we ever run from our feelings. It feels dangerous to make paradigm shifts because we have determined that what we were taught was right and when we see another perspective the first thing the ego does is bring up guilt. Guilt keeps us stuck in the past and so we continue creating the same things in the future.
I will keep at the Heart Chakra clearing today and then will move to the Throat Chakra. I choose to have faith in the process of letting go everything that doesn't serve me, so that I can be a blessing to others.