Here we are.
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Here we are at the start of a new year.
To sum up 2012...it was a roller coaster for me. I had some days/weeks where I made excuses, but overall, it was a tough year for me. I am still sick, or I should say, I am sick again. My poor body is ready to get out the door, but my lungs are telling me loud and clear that if I push them, they are going to vacate my body.
I was just getting over a chest cold when they decided to have a meeting at work last week. At 6am. Out in the shop because they needed room for 50+ employees. The temp was about 33 when we got out there, so I parked myself in front of the big heater...which they then turned off so we could hear what they had to say. We were out there for about an hour and a half. I am not saying it's their fault I am sick again...but that is who I am blaming, haha!
They decided to do some random drug screens, I was one of the lucky winners....this one was a breathalyzer to check for alcohol, they guy said, just take a big breath and blow hard. I had to remind him that I have asthma and was just getting over a chest cold, but was able to blow JUST long enough. I literally ran out of air as soon as the thingy clicked. Honestly, that is the only reason I would have been needed at that meeting, the meeting was for the drivers and truck safety/maintenance! Ugh!
Diet. I go back and forth on what I think about what and how I eat. I try to take note of how different things affect my weight, then I just ask myself if its worth it.
For instance....sausage.... breakfast, smoked, fried, or otherwise...makes me gain like crazy. Its high fat, salt, and usually made out of the parts of an animal that no one else wants! (Thats what I tell myself anyways, haha!) Unfortunately, I love the way it tastes so I limit it. I limit it both in portion size and how often I have it.
Fast food cravings are quickly becoming less and less of a problem for me. It started out with the horrifying amount of calories and trying to fit fast food into my calorie tracker along with food for the rest of the day, then progressed to how I would feel physically as soon as I was done eating. 1 McD's cheeseburger and small fries would hit my stomach and I could feel my pulse speed up and after about 20 minutes, I always started feeling...just blah. Tired and somewhat nauseated. No energy.
I also watched a few documentaries and found info on the web about HOW its made and what its made from.
I am finally to the point that when I drive past a fast food place, the smell doesn't even cause a craving. Driving past a Chinese place or steakhouse on the other hand.....yikes!
Exercise. Pretty non existent for the whole month of December. My usual thought pattern says I should feel guilty, but I'm not. I know I need to let my chest have a break while I am sick and give them a little time afterwards as well. I may have pushed my feet and knees like crazy over the summer/fall, but I can always limp around if they decide to give out...not so much with my lungs! I am still worried that I won't make my goal of being able to participate in a HM by the end of this fall, but I am going to keep trying. As soon as I am able, I will be out walking/jogging again. I am going to work on my 10k the same as I did my 5k. First thing is going to go out and walk one to get a base time. Since I can walk a 5k in just under an hour, I am expecting that the 10k will be 2.5 hours. Seems like a long time when I type it, but when I go for a walk/jog, it is still more walking than jogging.
Regarding my weight loss for 2012...overall, I am pretty pleased. I haven't lost anything in a few weeks, but I have maintained. Not a bad thing during the holidays. I am still bouncing 3 pounds back and forth, but its a 3 pound range during the same week so I don't count a gain or a loss. I don't expect to weigh the exact same thing every day. I lost 32 pounds from June until the end of the year, if I can do that in 6 months....this year will be great!
I hope you are looking forward to this year as I am.
I am wishing good things for you because you are worth it!
Much love and peace!