Well, here we are, in 2013. Unfortunately, the work did not end as so many people were expecting it to in December of 2012, so the show must go on. We have to continue the struggle, continue the fight, continue to find the things that make life great amidst all the chaos and darkness that surrounds us daily. No, this will not be a pessimistic blog, but hopefully it will be a realistic one.
My holidays were a busy time filled with both joy and heartache. I got a lot done, saw friends and family I hadn't seen in awhile, but also managed to squeeze in some time just for me, which was nice. My mother is still in really bad shape, so I did have to spend a lot of time helping her out. Luckily, my brother was available to help out more than usual, so I managed to sneak in a mini vacation with my boyfriend. Yes, we are still together, and I feel more hopeful about things than I have in a long time when it comes to our relationship. However, we still have a lot to work out.
I ate an awful lot over the holidays, but I got a lot of exercise in too. I don't feel guilty, because I planned on enjoying myself, and had a lot of treats I've been hankering for for a long time. I feel better for all the savoury and scrumptious food that I enjoyed, and feel much more prepared to resist temptation for the next little while. I feel strong and confident. The good thing is, I didn't gain any weight, and it's okay that I didn't lose any, because I really didn't expect to over the last few weeks.
I don't really have any specific resolutions for 2013, but I have a good feeling about this year. 13 is one of my favourite numbers after all! I'm just going to keep trying on bettering myself in all aspects of my life. And I'm going to try not to be so hard on myself when I fail. I beat myself up too much, and I know that this has got to stop. I have to be firm and self-disciplined, but not mean. If only you could hear some of the things I say to myself sometimes. Just nasty!
I haven't been on Sparkpeople much over the past few weeks, and I have missed it! I'm going to spend the next little while trying to catch up, and I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately. But I haven't disappeared. You can't get rid of me that easily!
I'm going to end this blog with a photo of myself that my boyfriend found on his iPad the other day. It was taken last winter, and I'm not sure exactly how much I weighed, but I was definitely at my largest, so it was probably close to 230. It's really hard for me to post this, but I'm doing it for motivation. I never want to be that girl again. So if I have any sort of resolution for this year at all, it's to not let myself re-gain any of the weight that I have lost thus far. I'm going to stay strong!