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Hello 2013! I confess, I cheated....

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

I made 2013 a promise...I would put the scale away until January 1, and enjoy the holidays without worrying about weight gain.

Then, the day after Christmas, I pulled on the "skinny jeans" -- and they wouldn't button.


I threw open the closet door, hunted beneath the newly-received presents, and pulled out the scale. And do you know what it said?!

That's right. Since Thanksgiving, I've gained a full 10 pounds.


So I resolved to keep my resolution (?) and put the scale away. I would enjoy my visit to Louisville, and put weight loss goals on the sidelines until New Years.

But, in the back of my mind, I remembered the WHOLE TIME that I had gained 10 pounds. It wasn't the stress-free New Year's with my girlfriends I wanted, let me tell you!!!


Here I am, January 2, back in the office, with a scale telling me THIS!

I thought about making resolutions, but I've already made them all! I KNOW exactly what to do, I just got lazy over the holidays! I overindulged at the cheese sampler tray, and I should have asked what exactly what was IN the hot buttered rum before I had like five of them! (HINT: butter, rum, sugar. Lots of all three to make it taste that good!)

So instead, I'm writing a breakup letter to some of my favorite "bad" foods, and every time I want one of them, I'll reread it to remind myself why I don't REALLY want them.

Dear Taco Bell/Chinese Takeout/Pizza AND pizza rolls/French Onion Dip/That Awesome Mexican Restaurant with the Jumbo Margaritas/Any/all other foods that are so absolutely delicious I can't stop when I'm no longer hungry and have to eat until I'm about to bust a gut:

I'm so sorry, but this just isn't working for me anymore!

You're holding me back. You're keeping me a prisoner in this body with it's extra cushion and spare tire around the middle and sagging, flabby parts, and that's just not who I am! I have TONS of muscle underneath it all! And I want the world to see the real me -- the biker, the runner, the kayaker, the rock climber....all of it!!

That, and I'm sick of my thighs getting chafed when I run in shorts on the treadmill. I'll admit that it might not just be you....but you bear at least some of the responsibility!

How could you not have seen this coming?! We used to see each other all the time, several times a week, sometimes every day! But then I started pulling away, and soon we only saw each other once a month if at all! But once a month is STILL too much for's time to end it completely!

I just feel sick afterwards, you know?! And heavy and weighted down, and I don't ever want to DO anything! Which sucks, because when I don't, I have SOOOO much energy, I always want to do something! That lethargic feeling is just too alien now, I can't take it anymore!

Don't feel bad. I'm also breaking up with Mr. Cigarette. I know, I said it before and went back. But this time, I'm done. I'm doing a clean sweep, and kicking all the toxic out of my life. Because 2013 is the year that I turn's not a joke, or a game, it's the health and fitness that will keep me healthy long past my 30's, and I'm out of time for a genie to just magically give it to me!

It's not you, it's me. I deserve better. I want to feel better. I want to look better. I want to run more than 8.5 miles someday. I want to run faster and not have to walk at all! I want to do the paddler's rendesvous, that 18.5 river mile stretch, in BETTER than four hours! And I don't want my arms to be sore afterwards!! And this summer, I'm going to take all the money I saved by NOT letting you and Mr. Cigarette into my life, and I'm going back to Yellowstone to hike and camp and backpack and kayak and hopefully rock climb!
How do you like them apples?! (Note to self, buy apples! emoticon )

Love and light and health in 2013!

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    I love your break-up letter. Very inspiring.
    1895 days ago
    Cute letter I'm going to try myself. I'm now in. A 4x tshirt and I'm 24 I'm scared if I don't change it might be a 8x by 34 but I'm going to do my best and only going to touch a scale if I have too by a doctor cause u can always tell with clothes. My goal don't be no weigh levels this time but to get back up a day after I fall! Anyways good luck!
    1900 days ago
    Great breakup letter. Serious but fun at the same time. emoticon emoticon
    1901 days ago
    You go girl!! emoticon emoticon You tell that "Taco Bell/Chinese Takeout/Pizza AND pizza rolls/French Onion Dip/That Awesome Mexican Restaurant with the Jumbo Margaritas/Any/all other foods that are so absolutely delicious I can't stop when I'm no longer hungry and have to eat until I'm about to bust a gut" WHO IS BOSS! And I'm still proud of you for trying to go without the scale minus one small run in. Now it's a new year and you can get back to it!
    1901 days ago
    Every time I wanted to step on the scale I actually thought of you this holiday season. I also snuck a peek and had gained, and then the glance was not worth it at all. I think we are living parallel lives, down to the high calorie holiday drink (I actually allowed heavy cream, a dozen egg yolks whole milk and booze to turn into eggnog in my house! Then I drank 2 full glasses)!

    I love the breakup letter. When I feel called to my foods that make me feel like crap, (if I'm in a sane enough state of mind) I visualize if all of my problems are really going to go away if I eat. They never do whether I choose to eat or not.

    You've taken weight off before, and so the 10 pounds are going to come off. Some of it's water weight too. Good luck with 2013, you can do this!
    1901 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Its not you, its me....classic! Love the letter and the idea behind it! You have the right attitude and plan and now all you have to do is execute the said plan!

    I know you can do it! You know you can do it! It is all doable from the food to the cigarettes. It is not easy but it is worth it to help you become you! Become that person that you are and want the world to see because that is who you really are!

    One day at a time. One step at a time. Earn it every day and never look back! You'll be rock climbing at Yellowstone in no time! I know you'll be liking those apples emoticon
    1901 days ago
    This is a break up for the best. You are going to be happy that you did it.
    1902 days ago
    Awesome blog! LOVED the breakup message to Taco Bell and cigarettes! I'm doing my own break up message to my bad habits -- but I LOVED the sense of humor in yours!
    1902 days ago
    Love it! When I quit I put the money I would have spent on cigs into a jar on my nightstand every night without fail before climbing in. That jar was one of the first things I saw in the AM. That was my motivation, watching how quickly it added up. You might get to Yellowstone earlier or for longer if you see concrete results. I didn't want to leave it in the account, that wasn't real enough for me so the act of putting money in the jar rather than on a counter made it real. It was pretty cool to have to empty the jar multiple times and stuff envelopes with the cash.
    1902 days ago
  • SBATES63
    Great letter! Tell them who is in charge!!!
    1902 days ago
  • BUTTERFLY-1976
    Awesome Break up Letter!! emoticon
    1902 days ago
    Great break up letter! you can do this! Have fun reaching those goals!
    1902 days ago
    I was really "lucky" to maintain during the holidays. But on the flip-side, I had gained 10 lbs after a recent miscarriage. I am at EXACTLY the same weight as you too. So, we will do this together. We got this!!
    1902 days ago
    Good for you! I am in much the same place with food. I have some breaking up to do to. I managed to quit smoking 17 years ago, you can do it too!
    1902 days ago
  • STODD251
    I love this! Keep making healthy choices and you will make 2013 a great year!
    1902 days ago
    1902 days ago
    I am in much the same place. We can do it! Superwomen!
    1902 days ago
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