Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Well, I'm back on for a little bit and wanted to post an update of my journey of mind and weight. The doctor took me off of the new leg tremor medicine and put me back on my original one that I have done so well on as far as my mental and weight status. My dear husband was "not leaving until" he spoke his mind and feelings about me and my present issues. I am so thankful for a supporting husband and family. By the time we arrived at the doctor's office, he had to just do my talking for me. When the doctor first saw me in her office, she couldn't believe how far I'd gone back down into the depression. She figured that I would gain weight, but was stunned at my emotional level. She promised that she wouldn't "go there again" and re-started my regular leg tremor medicine that I've been on for so long. My husband and I both talked about it over the previous days and decided that we would rather have leg tremors and happiness as opposed to minimal leg tremors with depression and weight gain. Sooooooo here I go again. Step #1 to the "new me" is beginning.
I gained a total of 24 lbs since starting on the new meds, and have already lost 7 lbs. being off of it. I know that it is just fluid, but even knowing that, it still gives me some encouragement of the numbers going down and not going up. I'll take whatever I can see right now.
This morning, I was able to get out of bed by myself and was able to think some positive thoughts. I had no thoughts of self harm. I had no thoughts of eating 3 breakfasts worth of food.
I most of all in this blog, want to say, that I have never had so much encouraging, inspiring, uplifting, prayers, kindness, and true concern sent to me as I have had from all of you. My husband told me that this website and all of the friends and family that I have met here, and who have been close to me during these past few days, that they are a life saver in themselves. He thanks you from the bottom of his heart. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart also. I now see what it really means to have extended families.
I'm anxious to get back to where I was, but also know that it will be a step at a time. I plan to get back on SP daily and do my tracking and get back to my "200 lbs lost" image. I have changed it to show that I am working on myself and when I get back to my old self, I will change it back to where I was.
Thank you, and double thank all of you for being here for me. I hope that I can return the love and encouragement that you have sent to me.
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