Inner Conflict Session 3
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I decided to keep up with these meditation exercises since I felt they were yielding some pretty cool stuff!
So I quieted myself and asked myself, " What is propelling me forward towards the best me."
I felt led to feel the strength in my right arm......my shoulder and bicep. My right arm really is my dependable work-horse. The image I had was one of a steely hammer.
Then I asked myself what was holding me back. In my left hand I held a palm-sized rock....hard and cold.
I realized I was using my own strength to beat on myself. I viewed my body/self as hard and resistant to change and that I had to beat, beat, beat on it with the part of me that is strong.
That would certainly explain the sense of pain that I attach with moving towards my best me & my best body.
So.....how to resolve this? All at once the rock turned into clay! I mean, this meditation stuff is kind of crazy, but quite interesting and fun. Anyway.......I realized that my body is totally malleable but that I had to warm it up, knead it, treat it with gentle massage and then painless movement would be possible. So that gave me a new approach stretching and
potentially strength training.
I got off the couch and in a relaxed fashion did gentle stretching of my whole body. I actually put on another layer of clothes to physically warm my body and released the tension from within the muscles. I did not force the stretch at all by using the strength of my other muscles. I just let the tight muscles relax and then would gently move them but not push them to their maximum stretching point.
The image of the hammer persisted. I realized I didn't need a hammer, but the image was still there. Then I thought, "Turn it on the side and use the handle to roll and gently knead the clay when that is the action that is best. "