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Inner Conflict Session 3

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

I decided to keep up with these meditation exercises since I felt they were yielding some pretty cool stuff!

So I quieted myself and asked myself, " What is propelling me forward towards the best me."
I felt led to feel the strength in my right arm......my shoulder and bicep. My right arm really is my dependable work-horse. The image I had was one of a steely hammer.

Then I asked myself what was holding me back. In my left hand I held a palm-sized rock....hard and cold.

I realized I was using my own strength to beat on myself. I viewed my body/self as hard and resistant to change and that I had to beat, beat, beat on it with the part of me that is strong.
That would certainly explain the sense of pain that I attach with moving towards my best me & my best body.

So.....how to resolve this? All at once the rock turned into clay! I mean, this meditation stuff is kind of crazy, but quite interesting and fun. Anyway.......I realized that my body is totally malleable but that I had to warm it up, knead it, treat it with gentle massage and then painless movement would be possible. So that gave me a new approach stretching and
potentially strength training.

I got off the couch and in a relaxed fashion did gentle stretching of my whole body. I actually put on another layer of clothes to physically warm my body and released the tension from within the muscles. I did not force the stretch at all by using the strength of my other muscles. I just let the tight muscles relax and then would gently move them but not push them to their maximum stretching point.

The image of the hammer persisted. I realized I didn't need a hammer, but the image was still there. Then I thought, "Turn it on the side and use the handle to roll and gently knead the clay when that is the action that is best. "
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    sometimes change is good. sounds like you're getting healthier.
    1879 days ago
    Sounds look good work. A year or two ago I realized that I wasn't exercising because I had this 'hidden' belief that 'it is dangerous to be strong'. I did inner work on that, tried to be aware of the events and the pain in my past that 'created' the belief. Later on I even visualized myself slamming that belief in two the way a karate master smashes a wooden board in two. After that, I 'suddenly' started exercising with pleasure while before, I'd always sabotaged myself.
    1880 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/2/2013 2:04:11 PM
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