Mourning and Eating
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
My father aged 74 died in September. He was my best friend my mentor and my guide through life. We saw each other every day as we worked together growing our business. We never argued but only discussed things. I miss him so much. But though his life was too short it was not as bad as so many. At least his life was crammed full of experiences and happiness.
Dealing with my grief has been as im sure it is with everybody very complicated. Trying to be strong for the family has often lead to my sadness being dealt with on my own. It has grabbed me at unusual and unprompted times - watching television, on walks or in the car. I guess there is no science that can explain how we deal with the emotions that death brings we just have to deal with it and move on.
As usual for me stress and sadness equals huge food eating and the weight has come back. I am now were I was 2 and half years ago.
But I will not give in - My dad always said "son you must always a goal to aim for or you will never hit the target" so with that in mind and to celebrate his life I am raising money for the Hospice and Prostate cancer research by walking 170miles in the shropshire wilderness in 6 days in June this year.
I will have to be 80lbs lighter or I will not be able to do it so here we go again this time in my dads memory.
Happy 2013 evrybody I wish you all the very best of fortune in achieveing your goals in life this year.