Wednesday, January 02, 2013
I had kind of a terrible new years. My honey has been acting a little bit funny lately, and I miss him so much. I ate fine, sure, but since New Year's Eve, I've been really down, worried about what is wrong. I asked him today, once, after he said bye to me in the middle of the day, if he wanted to talk about what was bothering him- first time I've brought up that I've noticed something off beside the time I asked him why he sent me a blank message last night (we were in the middle of a sensitive conversation, which ended in me telling him that I love him no matter what and it doesn't effect my love for him, etc etc, and he just sent me a blank message and said he was going to bed after I asked about the blank message).
Nobody wants to hear about that, I'm sure. Long story short, when I told him I wanted to talk about what was wrong, he got really hostile and said the only thing was was me "insisting" that something was wrong and I don't know.
So, I've been making him a Snorlax beanbag chair for his birthday/Christmas, and anyway, tonight, after he said he was going to go to bed, he told me he wishes I wasn't making him the Snorlax. I asked why, and he said because I've been "so distant."
I don't really know what that means. First interpretation: he thinks I'm not paying attention to him or I've been somehow off. Which I don't understand, because I've been excited about it, showing pictures, being happy, reminding him I love him, etc. The second interpretation: he is growing apart from me, is started to not love me anymore, and thus, thinks my efforts are being wasted.
Oh, does anybody want to see the bean bag? It looks really cute.