20 months ago I had my life going in the right direction.
Sparks help me lose 50 lbs and get my emotional eating under control and then everything when to h*ll
My youngest son was in a bad accident earlier and was now hooked on oxys and his girlfriend of 13 years was now on zany bars, blues and who knows what.and left leaving my 2 granddaughters (3 & 6) with my son because she said she couldn't handle them. (Did I mention that my son lived on the other side of my house so I became a sandwich.
CPS was called in and I was made temporary guardian BUT I had to leave my own home because of the situation . I moved in with my parents for what I thought would be a few weeks (turned out to be a year).
My Mom has COPD and my dad was in early stages of Alzheimer which was progress fast and 2 months after I moved in I has to find a home for him. My son went to court ordered rehab (14 months) and the girls mother did nothing that CPS required.
Next the judge awarded me full guardian ship and I moved back to my home....... which started showing signs of having a sink hole and we started going through testing. It was determined that I have ground movement (after living in my house for 20 years) and not sink holes so all repairs where my problem.
At that point the doctor was proud of me because I had only put on 18 pounds of over 50.
Now my son comes home and all h*ll starts breaking lose / 8 weeks after her comes home I realize I major emotional eating and adding bunches of pounds each week.
The drama still goes on and I am considering selling my home and moving elsewhere with my granddaughters.
I also realize that I am just going through the Sparks motions and cheating myself. Yes, I was reading the articles but NOT mediating and socking them in my soul as I once did.
Not only had I lost the battle but I was cheating myself and not getting a handle on my emotional eating.
Then I started looking at all my Sparks friends and seeing how many were gone. Then I realized they had not only lost the battle but instead have lost the war.
I've spent today cleaning out food (its amazing the garbage we put in our cabinets for the grandchildren) and starting to work on the emotional eating and starting to read and mediate on the sparks articles.
May you all will the war