Here we go...
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
An article I just read included a discussion on the importance of getting enough sleep. This is totally something I struggle with. My nighttime, after everyone else is in bed (hubby included -- and I know this a whole other issue) is my time. I feel such a sense of...relief. Nope not peace, or quiet, or stillness or any of those other good word. Relief. I made it through the day without killing anyone. I can finally not have to listen to bickering or negativity. I can do what I want without feeling like I should be doing something else. I don't have to be anything for anyone. I can just be. I'm so relieved. This is not a positive state really; I'd rather say that I feel peaceful and just enjoy the quiet. But in reality I stay up way too late because I feel so relieved to be at this place and I don't want to go to bed because then it all starts again. So...changing my internal dialogue. I'm going to go to bed NOW because:
Tomorrow is a new day, honestly with lots of new opportunities.
I get to really start this journey to taking care of myself with healthy food choices.
I will enjoy the day more if I'm well-rested.
Over time, I will no longer feel relief so much as peace. That's what I want at the end of each day...peace...and quiet. :o)