Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Life is a crazy thing! And sometimes we just aren't ready to admit things to ourselves yet. I realized last night while awaiting the new year that I just don't feel like myself anymore. 2012 had it's ups and it had its downs and allot of unexpected changes, some good and some bad but, changes the none the less. Change is a good thing but, sometimes the ways in which i deal with it, isn't healthy. I don't cope well with stressers and I am human and can only handle some much at once.
I can tell when I am ready for re-commitment and in all honesty, I can't say i am hundred percent there yet. However, I can say that I recognize the need more than ever. My clothes not fitting quite right now maybe be on indicator but, the bigger one is how I feel.
My head hurts and I am ALWAYS tired lately. I can tell my blood pressure is starting to go all over the board and On Christmas day my husband and I were walking around a local area looking at lights and I actually was winded by the time I got by the car....WHAT!!!! I admitted that to myself but, not to him...lol...
It's been about a month and half since I have been to the gym and even longer since I have actually paid attention to what I put in my body. To be honest, I have been so fed up and stressed with stuff that I basically threw my hands up. However, I can't do this anymore. I have to find that point within me that I know I reach when I am ready to balance again. When I am ready to proceed again down the road that I need to. I have to step back on my scale to forgive myself once again from what I have done and start fresh.
I have learned long ago to forgive and make better choices, I can't undo the done, if you know what I mean but, I need to find my way again. I am starting to establish my routines again and starting to find my way. I am no where near where I know I need to be but, I have always felt that yes, physically excersise plays a role but, the mental challenge of a healthy choices is a bigger part to play sometimes. Allot of my healthy choices stuck with me for quite some time then slowly they started to change, they started to alter, they started to not seem to normal and choices, bad habits started to arise again.
These bad choices and unforuatnly re-habits are going to go away over night but, for my own healths sake I have to make me a priority again.
So, gonna start with blogging. No, goals, no expectations, just habits. I got the spark app today and I have to say I was a bit surpurised I had to buy it..????? However, I believe in this site so, I downloaded it.
So, here's is a to healthy 2013!