Can't believe how my will power goes out the window when watching tv.
We were watching a movie last night and my husband got up to make himself some chips with melted cheese.
I did not want any because we had already had fruits with chocolat fondu (planned for the night) but he had made a lot because he did not ask me before so he kind of made me feel guilty for not telling him I was on a diet before the 2nd of January (when he's planning on starting),plus they looked really good,so I went and got salsa and finished off the chips.
I was not overly full but then I got a container of yogurt and ate most of it.
Then I was disgusted with myself.
I told my husband that we have to stop making each other fat!!!
On the bright side, I had a talk with the voice in my head this morning that was telling me I had blown it and might as well binge today and start tomorrow, and I told it that it was really not a good deal and that I had not blown it and that today was a new day and I did not have to over eat or binge.
And i'm happy to say that I did it.
I ate normally.
But my mom was on my case because I have started to track my food in a food diary and she was chidding me for being on a diet.
Says I lost weight last year doing zumba and that's what I should do this year.
I wish she would know the struggles I go through everyday with my eating.
But she won't. She can't. It's my struggle.
Yes I did it with zumba as my fitness, and I did not have to track my food-I was just making better choices-but this year I want to track for the days that my hunger is not stomach hunger,but head hunger.
And because I'm not as fat, I'm not losing as fast and I want to be at goal weight before 2014!
What I mean is, when I want to eat because of emotions, or something other than hunger, it gets really jumbled and confused in my head (internal dialogue goes haywire), and if I track, the calories are calories and I can know I had enough.
That's it-no second guessing myself and pretending I need that________ (insert all kinds of junk food here) because i'm cerain I did not get enough nutrients and maybe i'm hungry after all and if I don't eat right now.....I will pass out or worst,feel hungry!
One of the things I'm working on this year is hunger.
I'm embrassing my hunger.
Instead of paniquing at the first sign of hunger, I embrass it and acknowledge it, and live it.
Waiting to eat is kind of fun because I enjoy my food much more!
There was a great article in this mornings news paper:
How to get a handle on food portion control.
2-What and how we eat
and this one is definetely for me!!!!
If you usually eat under certain conditions your mind will learn to expect it.
For example, if you eat every night while watching TV, you'll start salivating and your stomach will start realeasing gastric juices to prepare for eating whenever you sit down to watch youf farourite shows.
If you try to keep from eating, your brain will keep insisting that you obey, making it extremely difficult to break the habit with "cold-turkey" methods.
Instead, aim for small steps toward changing your habit. You might focus on gradually changing the quality of the foods you eat while watching TV. THen work on reducing the quantities.
Do something incompatible with eating during the time you usually watch TV. Working on a craft or doiong strectches can distract you from eating.
THAT IS SO ME!
Habits are so easy to make but so tough to break.
But I have plans this year, and I'll beat those bad habits to a pulp!
Hope to see less of you in the new year!