Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Here I am again. It's been a year. I did a lot this year. I beat myself up a lot, the family home was sold, my sister died, I hadn't even gotten over mom dying in 2011 so a lot of loss and grief and crying and eating and depression. I didn't sink down the hole, but I got stuck a lot.
My weight yo-yo'd and I'm still not where I want to be, so I am here again to get moving like I want to.
After an extremely successful concert this past Saturday (12/28/12), I was beat. Exhausted, really, and if I want to continue this work, which I do, I can't take an entire day to recover before I do it again. It's not for lack of wanting to, but I'm getting older and I weigh too much. Recovery and stamina is essential if I want to perform. And I really want to perform.
So, here we go again...but I think I'm in a much better place spiritually to make it happen. My 'quit' has quit. I can feel it. And it's a wonderful thing. I hope to use this site more to my advantage this time rather than to just make excuses not to use it for my own good. I didn't like the food journalling, because I didn't want to be told I had to change. I have changed and because of it, I can finally see past my fear and make this happen. I hope to make new friends this time around. I want to hear other stories, and be inspired, and to inspire others.