Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Day 31 continued~
Yesterday, was really great in terms of inner healing work, clearing the Chakras. I did 17 training videos, which was 5 1/2 hours broke up through out the day. I liken it to cleaning out a really messy closet. You have to make a bigger mess before the final product of clean and organized is manifested. The end result brings peace of mind, but first there is chaos and disorganization that must be confronted head on.
It's all part of the process of helping me love myself and my body, so that I am know longer sabotaging the process. Because I am in training, I am doing more work than the average person, but for anyone wanting to change and grow, the process still works the same, when scaled down.
Most people get really discouraged right before the big shift happens, because they are convinced it, whatever method they are using, just doesn't work. The reality is that the fear is paralyzing the transformation from happening for whatever reasons/excuses the person has deemed true for them. Then throwing in the towel seems to be the wisest and safest thing to do. Those old comfort zones "feel" safe, when in reality they are keeping us living in fear rather than faith. I am beginning to see his is the case for all self-sabotage.
This process has gotten me in touch with deeper layers of fear and that's okay. I only need to stay committed to the transformation process and not run from the fear that is usually triggered because of past traumas. Forgiveness is always the key.
My son and I saw Rise of the Guardians with my granddaughter for her 11th birthday last week. I always look for symbolism and Jack Frost's story is much like my own transformation. Until he faced his fears, he didn't discover his true purpose and passion, to bring fun and to be a Guardian of all the children. After that, even though the fear showed up, he no longer denied it's existence nor cowered to it's power. We loved the movie!
I did work out and got in my 6000 steps and I ate my 2 super shakes and 1 healthy meal that was between 400-600 calories, plus my 3 healthy snacks.
I feel great and am loving being home this cold and sunny New Year's Day!