Tuesday, January 01, 2013
I am sick of this...and sick of me! Now I know better. I lost 50 lbs when I first joined Spark almost 5 years ago, and here I am with a weight gain for last year. I don't like myself. I have started so many ways to lose weight and it never "takes".
Tired of gaining, tired of looking at my fat self in the mirror, tired of rearranging my many different sizes of clothes in my closet, and tired of letting my friends know I have no will power.
Here's the big problem. I wander in and out of the kichen "after hours". Therein is my biggest problem. Admittedly, I eat more calories during "after hours snack time" than at me
al time and also admittedly, i don't ever count those calories. What the hell is wrong with me?
And then there is the thing of not getting enough sleep. I never knew that lack of sleep can sabotage your weight...I have always stayed up late no matter what time I had to get up. Sometimes only getting 4-5 hours of sleep.
So there you have it. Get to bed earlier, and stay out of the kitchen after 8 pm. And if I mess up and go to the kitchen, I commit to counting those calories. It will at least make me aware.