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New years resolutions

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Got to love it. Its probably even true for most folks, myself included. But one can only but keep trying because giving up is the enemy. So once again.....I have made some decisions to live by and hope I can succeed.

I am not listing spiritual things because those are not things to try and aspire to, they are my food and cannot be missed.

1. Not spend so much time fixing other peoples relationship issues. If you want to constantly fight, do so, you no as much as I do about how to keep peace as far as it is possible with yourself.

I sadly draw to me people who are needy, yet angry at their needy state. I know I am strong, but being 52 Im finding I dont have as much to offer the "bottomless pit" emotional people.
Accepting that I cant fix the world, no matter how much I'd like to is something I must work on this year. My intentions are good, but I need to realize that those same people don't want a fix, just a sounding board to complain non-stop. I cant be that sounding board, I'm not a paid psychologist.

2. Get back to gardening, its therapeutic and beautifies the home and keeps me from engaging with others who are bored/angry/frustrated etc.

I get totally lost in that peaceful world of beauty that Jehovah God has given us. The plants, the birds, the sound of the running water feature are things I MUST get back to. Too much running around helping others and emptying myself on their behalf. There is no fix, and no thank you. Time to step aside and get back the peace and joy I once had in my life in an abundance.

3. Get back to sewing, its a hobby I thoroughly enjoy and also keeps me out of mischief makers paths. Keep drawing.

I enjoy being creative. Im not a seamstress by any means, but I still enjoy creating clothes out of a few meters of material. I get a sense of well being seeing the end result. I have always done hand drawn cartoon cards, then somewhere ran out of time because of helping the over needy and ended up just rushing into a store and buying cards. Its not that Im an artist by any means, just enjoy doing personalized cards and enjoy doing cartoons. It also keeps me busy and out of other peoples lives.

4. Prepare myself for the tragedy which is waiting in 2013. Do the best not to be floored by what will happen.

My daughter in law is in a lot of pain and cannot go on forever. In December, her oncologist said "6 months with an optimistic prognosis"....3 have already passed. I no they cant give a time, it could go on longer, but she's not working at living, she's working at dying. So I need to prepare my emotions for the inevitable and have a coping mechanism in place to assist my son and my 2.5year old grandson.

Thats it. One for each quarter. I wonder how I will manage with those. Time will tell.
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    1744 days ago
    emoticon You've done well and will do wonderfully in meeting your goals!
    1749 days ago
    emoticon I wish I could be there with you.

    1749 days ago
    emoticon You and Your Family will be in my Prayers this Year. You have a Very Reasonable List of Goals - Not "Easy", but you have the Tools to accomplish these Goals, and You Are Worth It!!
    1750 days ago
    Oh my, the last one made me sad for your son and the baby. I will say some prayers for your family. I think your other goals are wonderful and know that you can do it Celest!
    1750 days ago

    Love Mary
    1750 days ago
    You are wise to include something you truly enjoy! Many could learn from your example.
    1750 days ago
    Celest --the hardest is the feelings- emotions when your dil passes.. it is and will be the worst
    you will probably have to deal with for 2013..
    Like you said you can not let this take over you -- You must look after you first.. so you can help your son and grandson...

    1750 days ago
    Celeste, you have great goals and I know you will work at them. I too know how hard it is to be in the 'waiting' period. When the time comes, it won't be easy but remember, Jehovah will be there to strengthen you and we will be here for you emoticon
    1750 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Big hugs, Celeste.
    I agree with you - the 'vampire' friends who such energy and time out of us need to find they get no sustenance from us. Gardening and sewing are good, practical solutions - so, too, is getting out and about for rejuvenating walks, again.

    1750 days ago
    being your best self, helps everyone around you.
    best wishes and prayers to your family
    1750 days ago
    You are a very wise woman.
    It's important you pamper yourself.
    Love you for you.
    Happy new Year Celest!
    1750 days ago
    Celeste' I hope all of us join you in your choices of mental home improvements this year...good goals for everyone to consider. As to the impending loss of a family member...that won't be easy ...but you will have the love and support of your local friends and your SP family here. emoticon
    1750 days ago
    As one who as lived through 3 major family members dying from cancer within 6 months of each other, you can never prepare yourself fully for the loss but you can make sure that you have the resources at hand to go through the grieving process which includes how the littlest ones are told.

    My heart goes out to you and yours. I hope that your DIL passing is quick and relatively painfree.

    Your family is in my prayers
    1750 days ago
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