Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Well I have just returned from a lovely trip to the beach. A place called Nelson Bay, it is a beautiful part of the world and my mum lives there also. We spent our days on the beach, swimming, snorkeling and relaxing although I wasn't as relaxed as I could have been. I promise myself each year that I never want to feel like this again but alas I let myself down each year. I was so self conscious and really intimidated. I AM FATand this holds me back. My hubby even took me to a beach because he thought I would like it better as there weren't so many people around. I actually asked my son to take a photo so I can hang it on the fridge. I'm hideous. And no I'm not being harsh on myself, I weighed myself and I'm the heaviest I have EVER been. Heavier than when I was full term with each of my pregnancies. It is NOT me. I'm not this girl I'm a gorgeous vibrant stylish woman inside this body.
So I made a call and I have ordered myself lite and easy. I need to do it this was so that I see results, learn portion sizes and get an idea of the meals I can be making. I am getting 5 days worth of food delivered so I will have to prepare meals two of those days. I'm going to give it a real go. I need to lose 20 kilos. I want to be 59 kilos. That would bey ultimate goal but I will see what happens as I will be weight and resistance training as well as eating the lite and easy meals. I can't always rely on those damn scales. So I will settle for fitting a size 8-10 pants (us 6-8). I can't do this any more. OH android incentive, we are off to FIJI in July. So I'm on it. In seven months I will be at my goal and swimming at any beach I want, flaunting my hot new body. I can't wait.