Tuesday, January 01, 2013
It is officially 2013 in Colorado, and with a new year there are many opportunities. I did not do everything that I did not want to do in 2012. It looks like my goals for 2013 are the same as last year's. Every thing has its ups and its downs but I have a lot to be to be thankful for. I have wonderful parents who are willing to help me while I struggle with getting back in school; I finally have a great job that I love even though I cannot support myself with it; I have great friends.
There is a quote from one if my favorite musicals that says, "you can like the life you're living, you can live the life you like." I am starting to like the life I'm living, but I would like to start living the life I like too.
Someone helped me see that my goals were not realisitic. I did have plans for all of them. But I understood they were realistic. So I revised this section..
1. I need to get out of my boring routine. My routine goes: wake up, feed dogs, eat breakfast, work out, search for jobs, do all house work, eat lunch, go to work, feed dogs, cook dinner, clean up, go for walk, play video games until I fall asleep. I live with my parents and sister; i do all of the house work and errands. It feels like I don't have time for anything else.
2. I need to go back to school. I already have my BA. my job offers discounts at certain schools in my area. I have it narrowed down to two masters programs that I qualify for. I just have to choose which one will be best for me.
3. Join Thornton walkers and go every month. My mom wants to do it with me so if I can get her to follow through, it will be easier to accomplish. Frankly, it is no different than going to the gym or going for a run every day. If I already work out/walk 1-2 hours each day, I can go for a walk with others in my neighborhood.
4. Find a second job. I have to. The most difficult thing about working with the school district is not having a job for the sumer. I am only working part time as it is. Would it be tough with going back to school and everything else? possibly. But in high school, I graduated with a 3.8GPA, I was in FOUR AP classes, I worked on every show in Drama Club while being an officer, I worked full time, I went to church every Wednesday and Sunday, and I did Tae Kwon Doe. In college, I worked full time, went to school full time, paid all of my own bills, and went to church twice a week. I can do it again.
5. Get my parents to listen to me. That one is a tough one. I have yet to find the encouragement there. Things like "I cut my hand and may need stitches" goes unnoticed at home. That's the price I pay for being 24 years old, I need to do everything on my own.
I need to find love, but I need to make friends first. Weight loss will be easy if I keep doing what I am doing. It feels like it is taking FOREVER but I will get there.
Those are what I HAVE to do. I do have plans to do them. I am starting to love myself and my life, but my main goal is to try to gain a bigger sense if surprise and belonging, to be more than a waste of space.