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If you were wondering what I look like... here I am!


Tuesday, January 01, 2013

I'm pretty typical of many Sparkers, I'm sure, when I say that I hate, hate, hate, taking pictures of myself! I'm insanely, harshly critical of any and every picture of myself. I see gray hair where everyone else sees dark auburn. I see my missing tooth, which makes me so self conscious that I barely smile anymore, let alone if there's a camera in the vicinity. I see the folds in my body that my clothes can't/don't cover. Do I need to go on? I can't focus on a happy moment because I obsess over how bad I look in the picture. (It's in my head, I know. )

But, I'm trying to work on that. I am. It's easier for me now that I've lost 30 lbs this year, but I'm still not at goal, and believe me when I tell you, I still scour each and every picture for flaws. I'm determined to keep working on myself, though. I'll be having my tooth replaced in the next couple of months, and my weight loss plans are still in effect. I have a half marathon scheduled in May, and I'm looking at another one in Sept, so my body image should be improved greatly by finishing those challenges.

For most of the year, I had a picture on my phone of a little black dress, along with an app that put a widget counting down to "Little Black Dress - 12/31/12" where I saw it everyday. I took it off not long ago, replaced by a picture of a woman running in winter, when I realized that reaching goal weight by New Year's Eve wasn't going to happen. For a few weeks, I felt a little disappointed that I'd failed - but I have gotten my head back into a good space, and I realize that losing 30 lbs this year is NOT a failure! Especially when you take into consideration that I'm a petite little thing... 5 foot even barefooted, small boned. My wedding ring is a size 4 1/2, for pity's sake! 30 lbs on me is a lot, and I'm proud of the work I've done this year. So I ditched the jeans and sweatshirt I was wearing earlier, put on makeup and slipped on a little black dress for New Year's Eve. Don't believe me? I can prove it....



I'm not entirely thrilled with this, I see many flaws... but the fact that I put it out on the internet can only mean positive changes, yes? I'm going to try to get more pictures out throughout the year, so that you can all know just who Dani is.

Looking at the pic, it didn't post the full shot... let me try to fix that, it's a full body shot.

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FUTUREHOPE49 1/13/2013 5:13PM

    30lb is a fantastic amount to lose in a year. That is the way to go! Good luck with your emoticon
You look amazing and very happy and beautiful. I know how it feels to be 5ft and overweight! and I think you are doing a splendid job! emoticon

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NIKKIKERN12 1/5/2013 10:35PM

    You look great!!! Congratulations on losing 30lbs and working towards a positive body image! I'm 5"1 and KNOW that 30 lbs is awesome. Keep up the great work and one day you will see your beauty, flaws and all. emoticon

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HEALTHYMLB 1/5/2013 5:12PM

    Wow you look so great !!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 1/5/2013 1:43PM

    Amazing. Congrats!

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ILIKETOZUMBA 1/1/2013 11:58PM

    WHOA, you look amazing!!! LOL my first thought was literally, "Damn, hot momma!" when I saw your photos. You SHOULD be proud of yourself! Way to go!

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HDHAWK 1/1/2013 7:49PM

    30 lbs. is a wonderful accomplishment and I think you look beautiful! My 18 yr. old son got on my case the other night about being too hard on myself. We need to stop that!

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MAGGIE805 1/1/2013 7:13PM

    Love it!!!

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GOPINTOS 1/1/2013 6:27PM

    Beautiful! Job well done!

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ANGIEMRC 1/1/2013 5:43PM

    emoticon

You look fantastic!

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THETURTLEBEAR 1/1/2013 5:40PM

    Hot stuff! You look FABULOUS!!

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BOOKWERME 1/1/2013 5:14PM

    You look terrific to me! emoticon

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MARGARITTM 1/1/2013 2:09PM

    Lookin good gf

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MA_DIDDLES 1/1/2013 1:21PM

    emoticon on the 30 pound loss. You are taking emoticon steps in the right direction.

emoticon emoticon U look like you are almost there..


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SHAR8676 1/1/2013 11:37AM

    Congratulations and Happy New Year!!! As you work toward your goals I wish you well in finding the balance between meeting your goals, recognizing where you have come in your journey, and seeing the beauty in you inside and out. Becarful staring at the flaws and refocus on the accomplishments. Recognize the changes within you so when you meet your goal you will be happy with what you hve done.

concentrate on the positives, if not you wont be able to see your progress.

I think it is amazing that you recognized your goal and put on the dress, and you have lost 30 pounds - and as someone seeing you through different eyes than your own - you look AMAZING!!!

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JUSTME29 1/1/2013 11:32AM

    You look great, and the dress really flatters you.

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C8TSON 1/1/2013 11:28AM

    YOU LOOK emoticon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRUNKJUNK 1/1/2013 11:12AM

    You look awesome!

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RUNNINGWILD 1/1/2013 4:44AM

    Danilynn, you are a beautiful, BEAUTIFUL woman and, someday, I hope you can see past your "flaws" to notice that. We can.
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THRIVE2DAY 1/1/2013 12:51AM

    Lookin' good!

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TIMOTHYNOHE 1/1/2013 12:45AM

    So lookit, you are a beautiful woman. There is no need to hide away from the camera. If someone tells you that you are beautiful, there is no need to think they are lying.



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BOBBYD31 1/1/2013 12:45AM

    CONGRATS!!!!! believe in yourself

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1BEACHWALKER 1/1/2013 12:41AM

    emoticon Hi Dani...nice to put a face to the name!!! Flaws-what flaws?! Very pretty lady!!! Good for you on posting the pic!!
emoticon on the 30 pounds! No failure-you are quite successful! emoticon emoticon

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 1/1/2013 12:34AM

    Beautiful! emoticon emoticon

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