The last day of 2012.
Monday, December 31, 2012
So another year comes to an end.
I am wishing and hoping that 2013 brings all the joy in our lives. I am being optimistic and I am realizig that I need to enjoy everyday in present tense. not past nor future tense.
My sister-in-law is in the hospital. She had some indigestion complaints (very nonspecefic)and was not feeling good on friday. After the checkup they found that three of her arteries of her heart were blocked and today she went for triple bypass heart surgery. I went to see her the past two days. I was uncomfortable to face all my in-laws after 2 years of turmoil but things went well. I wish that I could dissolve this gap between us. I have had my space for 2.5 years and now I want to be able to have a new fresh start. She did well in the surgery. It took 6.5 hrs. But I am realizing that life is short and I need to tell people who I care or even think about today that they mean something in my life and not wait for tomorrow because may be it will never come.
I will not loose weight in a day and although I am so uncomfortable with the weight gain and not want to be in front of people, not only I am hurting myself but also I am depriving my kids of a family gathering too. I was so proud when my older son Angad said to me that he wants to go see Bhua (father's sister) in the hospital. So I need to continue this family love feeling. I am no one to deprive these kids of a family love.
SO here's my new year resolution:
While working towards a good way of eating and exercising, I am also going to exercise bridging my gaps together with my in-laws. While keeping my space, I would like to give them my help and affection as definetly GoD has blessed me with a lot ofstrength and I need to be a bigger person. I am a nice person in my heart and I need to have a bigger heart. I need to put my miseries aside and carry on so my kids are not going to grow up with only one side of the family.
Wishing all my spark family a very happy new year.
Love you all and I thank all of you for being there when I needed the support the most. I am so much better today then I have been in the past 2 years and although it was tough I can say I came out stronger.
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!##$$$$$$$$$$++***%%