All right, that's quite enough!
Each New Year-past I'd spend reminiscing about lost opportunities, what I didn't achieve, which goals I didn't reach, how my age is advancing and I'm not close to a goal and blah blah blah
A wise person once said that you cannot expect a different outcome if you don't change the input.
So THIS New Year's Day I'm changing my focus, changing my perspective. Instead of looking at failures, I'm going to look at all the things I'm thankful for.
I'm thankful for my husband and the kind and tender way he holds me when I'm upset.
Im thankful for my 4year-old's little arms rushing to hug me when I get home
I'm thankful for my son finally finding a school where he can blossom and not be bullied
...for my aunt's selfless love in giving us 80% of her home as if its our own when we had no where to go
...for the year I've been granted to do soulsearching without the demands of a job
...for the nutrition knowledge I have which might've saved me from an even worse weight problem
...for my aunt teaching me a different perspective on life, and teaching me the joys of red wine
(that its ok to relax once in a while)
...for my cat that curls up against me even though I throw her off the bed most times
...for my husband finally getting the opportunity to pursue his life's dream, however scary it might be for me
...for not losing my car when I was without income - provision came in strange ways!
...for having the opportunity to make new friends
...for the revealing of the true colors of those I thought of as friends in time. However much it hurt when I lost them, I realised they might not have been friends to begin with.
...for having a fragile princess-girl who teach me to value the little things in life (she's fascinated with the smallest flowers and rocks and pieces of paper - always collecting!)
...for finally being allowed to discover who I really am and not be forced to live someone else's idea of what I should be.
...for having the opportunity to gain perspective on our political situation: Other countries have their problems too, just in a different shape or form.
...for God's guiding hand and provision even when it seemed as if I was alone.
...for having access to the SparkPeople community for encouragement when I didn't know where else to turn.
I should stop focussing on what I failed at, and start looking at what I succeed at. Even if its as small as remembering where I've put my shoes! Maybe if I make a habit of looking for one thing in a situation i can be greatful for, I'll be less inclined to become despondent when trouble hits.
Here's to a new year, a new outlook on life, and continuous improvement.
*raises glass of red wine* CHEERS!