Bless me, Father, me for I have sinned...
Monday, December 31, 2012
I haven't been on SP for about a week- which I can only partially blame on being out visiting the in-laws in Middleofnowhere, Iowa. My internet connection was nearly nonexistent- as was my resolve.
It was 12/23 that I started to slip- I had gone to the gym every day up until then, but the last details of Christmas got my attention. I began to partake of sweets and goodies- and once I crossed that point, I made the decision to take a break from the SP lifestyle. I have several thoughts on the subject:
1. This was actually more of a conscious decision than my previous downfalls.
2. In as much as I have gone off my plan, I haven't ever felt like I was on a binge- just eating less healthy "treats" etc.
3. In going back to my previous way of life before I started on SP, I have discovered that I really do not enjoy living like this. I miss the SP lifestyle and am looking forward to returning on 1/2/13. Were I to be hard-pressed as to "why not start tomorrow" - I would truly not be able to give a good answer. All I can say is that I feel like I will be able to slide back into the healthy patterns in the context of a workday, at maximum distance from family obligations (i.e. annual new years day feast at parents' house).
4. It is okay that I had a slip. I am human. I cannot demand perfection from myself anymore than I could from anyone else. This is not the end of the world. I have not failed. I haven't given up on this journey.
All I can do is learn from this, own my decision, and use what I have learned to continue the success I experienced for the 5 weeks prior to 12/22.
thank you all for your support.