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Bless me, Father, me for I have sinned...

Monday, December 31, 2012

I haven't been on SP for about a week- which I can only partially blame on being out visiting the in-laws in Middleofnowhere, Iowa. My internet connection was nearly nonexistent- as was my resolve.

It was 12/23 that I started to slip- I had gone to the gym every day up until then, but the last details of Christmas got my attention. I began to partake of sweets and goodies- and once I crossed that point, I made the decision to take a break from the SP lifestyle. I have several thoughts on the subject:

1. This was actually more of a conscious decision than my previous downfalls.
2. In as much as I have gone off my plan, I haven't ever felt like I was on a binge- just eating less healthy "treats" etc.
3. In going back to my previous way of life before I started on SP, I have discovered that I really do not enjoy living like this. I miss the SP lifestyle and am looking forward to returning on 1/2/13. Were I to be hard-pressed as to "why not start tomorrow" - I would truly not be able to give a good answer. All I can say is that I feel like I will be able to slide back into the healthy patterns in the context of a workday, at maximum distance from family obligations (i.e. annual new years day feast at parents' house).
4. It is okay that I had a slip. I am human. I cannot demand perfection from myself anymore than I could from anyone else. This is not the end of the world. I have not failed. I haven't given up on this journey.

All I can do is learn from this, own my decision, and use what I have learned to continue the success I experienced for the 5 weeks prior to 12/22.

thank you all for your support.
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  • CAMSEDGE that this part is behind is it going now? If you're going to write about the slip ups and problems...gotta write about the good stuff as
    1379 days ago
    I am completely with you on enjoying the holidays, but being able to do so in a way that is very much NOT a binge. That is a huge success and you should be thrilled!

    I also like that it was a conscious decision. I had that approach as well. I made conscious decision to *not* meet tentative goals I had set (i.e. never have more than one cookie in a day. Some days I had two, but I tracked them, and left out other foods in their place!) as well as conscious choices to do well (the day I decided NOT to go over my calorie range for a small sliver of pie, but have pie the NEXT day instead.)

    It's all part of the learning process! You'll take these lessons and use them well in the new year, that's the best part.

    You're awesome! I hope you had a wonderful time for the holidays, and I wish you well getting back into your routine!
    1392 days ago
    Hi there - how are you doing?

    Sounds like you have a plan. That's good and the 2nd is right around the corner. And it is YOUR PLAN not anyone else's so as long as you are good with it and it works, well... that's what matters.

    Make it a great day!
    1393 days ago
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