Monday, December 31, 2012
You know, 2012 was a wash as far as my weight is concerned...but you now I kept going to the gym1 or 2 times a week...but I didn't really put my heart in it. I think I was suffering from depression as a result of major disappointment in myself. What I loved doing (when I was done) was running. I started out with the c25k program and ran two 5k's..in 2011 and I thought that was what what my life was going to be about from then on..health. It was the fittest I had ever been ever in my life! something happened and I am not sure what order it happened..I stopped running...kept drinking as much as I could and picked up smoking after 2 years of not.Boy i could not even consider myself a worthwhile person..I hated myself....tried the c25k again, but with smoking 2 packs a day and carrying 35 extra pounds, it was freakin impossible. I almost threw in the towel..gave up on myself...but somehow something magical happened and I started to care..I was determined. So here we are, New Years Eve..and I can say I have quit smoking,(thank you chantix) and have managed to stay sober 293 days,,,so now I am soo ready for 2013...the year of me...I am going to take care of myself...in a real way..and I will restart the c25k program..so 2013 I am going to log lots of miles!!!!!