Monday, December 31, 2012
2012 was....a challenge. BUT, it laid the pathways to a lot of great things as well.
I narrowed in on my career passion and am working towards it. I resolved the question of do I or do I not want kids (I do ). I made changes to some of the priorities in my life and as a result am living even more in line with my values (the right friends, my marriage, art, music, creative expression). I lost 8 pounds and gained many fitness minutes and the voice to speak up for my health needs (even with myself) and as a result I am getting healthier everyday.
However, I firmly believe in everything for a reason. The challenges I faced this past year will only lead to big returns in 2013, as evidenced above, they are in many ways already paying off.
I also believe in "thoughts become things" and so I am wasting no time in working towards solidifying my thoughts and ensuring they are on the "right path" as much as is possible.
I have already re-set my weight loss goals for 10 pounds this coming year. I will nail this. How can I not? I have an excellent support community on Spark, I have learned what my body needs at 34 in it's current condition, I love being active and I have to keep up with my husband and dog. So this is in the bag.
I will re-set my fitness minutes. Turns out I am more active than I think I am and I don't track certain activities I could/should. As a former athlete, I think you are fairly hard on yourself and it takes a long time to adjust to the idea that even though you are not working out at a competitive level you are not a complete slug. So I will re-set my minutes for 5 hours a week and I know I will meet this easily.
I'm training to be a Life Coach. Working to inspire others means having a life that others want to emulate. You need to walk the walk and talk the talk. I do this on many levels but my kryptonite is twofold.
I am and always have been terrible at budgeting. I am now on day 4 of a new budget. The longest I have ever stuck to one. Yes, 4 days. Thus far I have not burst into flames or gone running into traffic screaming. It's even felt kind of good. It feels grown up. I might even SAVE money one day. Whoa, I just tried that thought on and my brain went into hysterics. Ok, more time on the budget to go before my mind revisits the concept of "money just sitting there".
I'm not the best at stress. Well, that's not entirely true. I have a wonderful ability to handle obscene amounts of severe and unusual stress without going nutter or dying my hair pink and wearing a paper bag to work. Growing up with such a stress capacity has given me tremendous survival skills. You can say pretty much anything to me and I will not bat an eye lash. I am your lady in a crisis. Client off his meds and attacking me with a Bic Pen? No sweat. But that doesn't mean it is healthy or good.
I've dabbled in meditation here and there, every time afterwards going "WOW, just WOW - that was so good" but just do not commit to it on a regular basis. Yesterday it hit me. How ridiculous it was. 10 minutes a day that's the minimum I need. Do I waste 10 minutes a day? Heck yes! It suddenly occurred to me that I was not making time for something in my life that was critical to my personal wellness and yet finding time for many other unnecessary things. Silly.
So health, mind and money....those are the goals or resolutions this year.
I wrote down others such as "Finish my Management Development Certificate" but with being already enrolled in my last two courses and having never not completed a course before, I am going to try on something new and consider this done. I will not doubt its conclusion or entertain any "what if" fears. In a very short time, I will have my certificate.
The other was "Complete Level One Coaching Certificate and get three clients" but again, with being already enrolled and with having people already approach me for sessions, I am going to tell myself that this is a reality it IS happening, it is not something I need to create a goal for, hope for, plan for. It is happening now. I give myself permission to accept, feel and revel in that.
Phew, wow, that feels good!
C'mon 2013! This is going to be a big year. If you are good to me, I may even start saving...