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Monday, December 31, 2012

As I glanced in the mirror, leaving the Y, after a 90 minute elliptical workout this morning with new Precor machines, having visited with great people including SparkFriend AQUAGIRL, with an appointment for a personal training session tomorrow at 10am (after 7am run), showered and blown dry, I was feeling good! I even let the thought that I looked pretty good kind of creep into my head for a moment.

What a turn around! Last night I was so down on myself. I felt like blubber city. I had a I-don't-care-I'm-hungry-and-I-
l-anyway quarter hour last night. Why do I do that?? I estimate I went over my calorie range by 300-350 calories, but the scale showed me up 2 full pounds, with the dreaded middle 3 again this morning. So my staying in the calorie range streak is broken again. Seven days is my record still. I made it six days this time.

The time I broke my 7 day streak I know exactly why. I didn't blog about it because it is embarrassing. I know better. A whole lot better. But confession is good..... That time my weight had been going down by a tenth or two each morning or at least staying the same. Suddenly it went up a couple pounds that I didn't think I deserved. No sodium splurge. No reason. So instead of buckling down and trying harder, I punished the scale by overeating!!!!??! Again. When will I learn?? I will learn. I will learn. I tell other Sparkers all the time about the scale as a terrible tease. I know this stuff!! I will learn. I will learn. When I overeat I will learn the lesson.

Okay, what was the lesson last night? Not sure, but I'm going to think about it and maybe I'll figure it out. Maybe too much fruit - too many fruit carbs and not enough healthy fat and lean protein. That's my first thought. I had real hungry and did not address it with what I was needing. I ate more fruit. Partly because we have too much in the house and I didn't want it to spoil. Isn't my health and fitness more important than a few wasted oranges?? Also, my tracking was imprecise and I wasn't exactly sure how many calories I'd had. It started with a pot of soup that I tried to estimate the bowl and felt like I hadn't nailed it. WATERMELLEN told me good enough is good enough. Count it and go on!! She's 100% right. So I'm still thinking about the lesson or lessons from last night and there may be more.

But one thing I know: going to the gym this morning? Priceless!!

Happy New Year to all my great SparkFriends!! You are even more valuable than the gym!!!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
AQUAGIRL08 1/2/2013 2:42PM

    I enjoyed seeing you at the gym too! Way to go with turning your mood around. In my book, you are and always will be a winner. I watch you and have hope for myself. Keep up the good work!

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CONTENTCHRIS 1/1/2013 12:17PM

    I think your a wonderful person and hope you can try and avoid the scale a bit more. You already work out more then most of us and eat very healthy. You are Wonderful as you are right now. So in Conclusion I say weigh in less and eat good as you do , continue to work it your doing AWESOME ! emoticon

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MSLZZY 1/1/2013 8:29AM

    Happy New Year, new attitude, new you! HUGS!

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GABY1948 1/1/2013 7:37AM

    Sorry you had a bad couple days here every so often. But you are still my inspiration, Marsha. You are a NORMAL human. This is the first day of 2013, and I never do resolutions but I am using this a day one of getting back on track so I quit with the up and down of my last 20-30 pounds. Thanks for inspiring me and for always blogging what happens...good or bad! Happy, Happy New year, my friend!

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NEW-CAZ 1/1/2013 7:10AM

    I've never regretted a workout-but I have regretted not working out. It can totally tranform your thinking..
We all have those pity parties Marsha- you turned it around hun emoticon

Happy New Year emoticon

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MIRAGE727 12/31/2012 10:40PM

    I'm in constant fluctuation or 2-3 pounds, Marsha. I just know it will even it's self out. I also practice damage control. I believe we all have little bumps in the road. It's what we do to resolve them that counts. You have also inspired me and will continue to do so. I'm thankful for that. Happy New year!

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FROSTY99 12/31/2012 10:36PM

    Keep on working out and those lbs will fall back off. We tend to beat ourselves up too much. Take note, don't repeat and keep on pushing.

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/31/2012 8:43PM

    Sometimes there is absolutely NO REASON for a little bump on the scale (even two pounds). Sometimes it just *is*... I have noticed this. The scale will do what the scale will do.

And YES, we have to re-learn the same lessons over and over again. In the circles of addiction they call it "keeping things green" when we talk about the bad stuff.

But here you are, not giving up, being honest about what's happening... and moving forward. That is emoticon worthy, Marsha. New day, new year, new YOU! And oh, so worth it... that trip to the gym? Indeed priceless!

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NATPLUMMER 12/31/2012 6:01PM

    You did not gain 2 pounds in 1 day....did you actually eat 7000 more calories than you needed? No? Enough said.

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MEXGAL1 12/31/2012 5:15PM

    Marsha, I sit here responding to your blog with an over stuffed belly. Ate a whole thin crust pizza. I am so uncomfortable right now. But the good news is that we know what to do and won't let this continue on and be an everyday thing. Tomorrow I will be back on track. I just feel yucky right now.
So here is to us....we at least know what to do and we are strong and we will not let the slips be the new normal. we will get back on track.
Here's to a wonderful, healthy new year!
Cheers my friend.

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ISHIIGIRL 12/31/2012 4:56PM

    Oh, that love hate relationship we have with the scale! I know it so well. I try not to rely on it mor than once a week. It is really to damaging to my self esteem to use it as a gage much more than that! I am glad you got back to being positively motivated instead of negatively motivated. Happy New Year to you!

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DSSECRETS 12/31/2012 4:25PM

    None of us make great decisions all the time. The important part is you acknowledged what happened and got right back on track. Remember, the scale is just a number. How you feel is so much more important. I'm glad you're feeling great today. I'm also glad you're working to figure out what happened last night. We learn the lesson we're supposed to learn and move on.

Here's to making a long string of great choices in 2013. Happy New Year!

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WILLOWBROOK5 12/31/2012 4:11PM

    Double post. Curse this iPad! Sorry.

Comment edited on: 12/31/2012 4:12:26 PM

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WILLOWBROOK5 12/31/2012 4:10PM

    I find the scale does not always make sense on a day to day basis. I will go up or down in weight for no reason that I can figure sometimes. I just like the down for no reason better than a mysterious up in weight. :-) The big picture, long run, is where the scale counts. It can be challenging finding and keeping our maintenance range, but I have no doubt that you will work all this out. Your wonderful attitude alone will be a huge assist. Thanks for being such a motivational, helpful and encouraging SparkFriend. Have a happy, healthy 2013!

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JOYINKY 12/31/2012 3:15PM

    Bottom line is you look and feel GREAT! That is awesome. Still, I know that struggle. Two things have helped me be more stable. One is counting protein grams as well as calories; I was at the bottom of my recommended protein range. Now I'm more in the middle every day and it seems to have helped with the other things; scale is more steady and I do feel better and have fewer cravings. The other is my calorie counting is very relaxed and I ALWAYS round up to the nearest 50. After all these years I seldom have to look anything up and I measure very few things. I know what my dishcs hold and am pretty good at estimating servings. Close is good enough as long as those 1-2 weigh in's a month are reasonable. If not, I tweak something. This is for life; for me it has to be easy. But you're absolutely right; it is a learning process and I'm still learning too! Happy New Year!

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WATERMELLEN 12/31/2012 3:02PM

    Pretty much never want to go to the gym: and always feel better after I do.

You have been a huge source of inspiration to me all the way through 2012, Marsha . . . just as you were in 2011. We struggle with doubt and self-criticism and "not good enough" and . . . let's face it, you look FABULOUS! and almost all the time, you also FEEL fabulous which is just what you deserve.

I try (without succeeding at all consistently) to apply Beck's "oh well" response to the familiar lapses into self doubt too. "I look terrible; I feel so fat and out of shape and . . . . " "Oh well".

PS -- you may see I edited my soup logging comment . . . when in doubt, I "round up". Helps keep me honest . . . .

Comment edited on: 12/31/2012 3:03:15 PM

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PMFISH 12/31/2012 2:18PM

    Marsha, do not forget muscle weighs more than fat! You are very busy building your muscles, not only does it show, but sometimes it shows on the scale. The ones that are hardest on themselves are the ones that are doing more right things than wrong. It doesn't seem to matter what age we are or how much we know. Sometimes the brain is just not rational. Keep up the good work! Happy New Year!

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_LINDA 12/31/2012 2:08PM

    Wow Marsha! So sorry to hear you are struggling with this! It is really hard to take when the scale doesn't behave, and it will be difficult not to take it personally. It takes a ton of calories -3500 OVER and ABOVE your normal calorie range just to gain one pound, and even with inaccurate tracking, you surely aren't guilty of that. Yes, you know better, but sometimes the heart doesn't listen. You need to try redirect that negative feeling into something other than food, or at least make it a well balanced snack -not having any fat or protein will make you stay hungry, it won't satisfy you for sure. I used to struggle with this mightily being a vegetarian, but I have learned to balance them out more. Maybe with the increased exercise, you are not getting enough calories? Its always walking a fine tightrope between too much and not enough and the key is to make sure your tracking of both fitness and food are accurate. I like looking at the summary charts Sparkpeople has of calories burned and calories consumed -it can be the real eye-opener and may illustrate where the problems are. If you haven't looked at them, may be worth a look.
I so agree if it wasn't for my special Spark friends, I doubt I would be paying so much attention to my healthy lifestyle as I do! You are all great motivators and wonderfully supportive!!
May you have the best New Year ever and reach that pesky goal weight once and for all! You CAN do it!!

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FITFOODIE806 12/31/2012 2:06PM

    I love how one good workout can completely turn a bad mood around. Happy new year!

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