Monday, December 31, 2012
Funny i have heard that my whole life and this reminds me of the cartoon movie lion king one of my kids favorites when hey were small but when i think of the Circle of Life i don't think lyons and muskrat's.....maybe the little red pig Pumbaa but i think about year after year saying this is my year and surprised every year sitting thinking wow if i would have done it right i'd be right where i should be by now like it just re-plays over and over the Circle of Life.
this journey of mine has nothing to do with the new years,yeah i started a little before in December but i've been knocking around the ideas and memories for a while how many failed attempts and the reasons behind them and the ideas i have to help change that and doing alot of research.
One, i know i'm breaking the Circle i have a whole new look at life....maybe it's age i don't know maybe i'm just tired of being tired and i think how everyone around me is sick of my excuses because i know i am like i say the same things over and over.
I already feel better i don't want to be broken anymore and i've been broken,depressed and even though my family says they support me i have used them up and tired them out to the point i have broken my support system as well.
i want to do this for once and not look back new years eve of 2013 broken,unhealthy so even though this is not a new years journey for me new years still effects my image of the circle of life...i'm spent out so here is to a new year and a new me and a new you if anyone reads this no matter how long it takes as long is it one step at a time!! one day at a time!!! and one year at a time!!!! we look forward... not behind... on new years,we sit and say i feel better i will keep going not....if, why, could've.
Happy Healthy BREAK the Circle New Years!!!!!!!