Monday, December 31, 2012
Actually I just couldn't think of a title...
I did buy a Striiv pedometer and loved it for the 4 weeks I had it before I stepped on it and broke it's face :(
So now I'm using my Omron and in some ways I like it better. I'm counting the aerobic steps as cardio on spark, which is fine because It means I was actually taking a walk; I never earn it at work.
I've been focusing on weights more too, trying to bulk up so my body will eat it's own fat... or so I can survive the apocalypse that didn't happen, but hey, you never know.
I've given up trying to give up coffee. Honestly, why bother? It's one of the only things that spikes my mood in the right direction.
I've been trying to be positive. It's easy at work, but I feel stupid sometimes the things I say. I'm not that person. I am more pessimistic than that. But at work I believe everyone is telling the truth; there is no other way to maintain the smile otherwise.
I've thought about seeing a doctor. But I don't think it would be worth it. My depression is low grade, leaving me slightly numb and lifeless, unreal. The super lows don't last for more than an hour, usually less, and the ups are nice. Whether they are due to coffee, some condition (thinking cyclothymia) or are just me being happy is definitely up for debate. But the side effects of medications would be worse, so I'll just deal with myself.
I'm listening to a book on tape by G. Roth. Finding it interesting, and am giving myself permission to eat whatever. We'll see how it goes. I'm up 10 pounds since a few months ago. I don't want to become diabetic like my dad, but every night I 'forget' that I'm trying to accomplish something that is worth it.
Happy New Year SparkPeople!