Monday, December 31, 2012
You may not recognize me, as I have been a complete stranger to Spark People for many many moons. Well, not in its entirety- I still read emails and earn SparkPoints and check up on a few random blogs. But I haven't been blogging, tracking, or following anything consistently.
I won't promise that I will do those things either. It seems the more pressure I put on myself to do such things, the more I get overwhelmed and then let myself down, and then guilt spiral occurs.
However, I would like to make more time for SparkPeople in my life- as a community and for me to blog, etc. As an extention to my commitment to myself!
Fitnesswise, 2012 has been a pretty great year. My weight has gone up and down and I currently have no idea where it's at right now since I've been vacationing in Vermont since Christmas (will return to my apartment in PA tomorrow!)..and with this vacation i have severely splurged..and been snowed in haha. Not feeling the best about myself right now, but as I have learned over the years, this is something I have the power to change :) and it won't ruin my present moment...as it has soooo many other times.
Anyways, sidetracked. I have been consistently dedicated to working out for almost 4 years now. For that I am very proud. I'm currently teaching Group Fitness Classes part- time, which has always been a dream of mine!
My relationship with food has been so so. Up and down, binge and starve, and so the cycle continues. I hope to clean that up a bit this year.
I've been all over the map this year- starting the year in Charleston, SC (my last blog entry!! haha), moving home to PA after a break up, spending the summer in Burlington, VT and then home again to Gettysburg, PA to help and be a part of a friend's wedding. Now living in Camp Hill, PA teaching gruop fit classes and waitressing...and planning my next adventure!!
I've learned so much about myself this year- what's I'm capable of, not capable of, what I deserve, habits/behaviors/addictions, who is there for me and who isn't, and so on. I'm learning what is important to me, what I'm passionate about, and how crucial it is for me to be MINDFUL.
I have a love/hate relationship with goals and resolutions. But I've always loved WORDS. So, for now, maybe I'll just go with some keywords that resonate with what I would like to strive for in 2013...
ELIMINATING EXCESS ("stuff," debt, food, anything haha)
well, i'm on the run, but here's a start. to its up and downs, cheers to 2012, welcome 2013.