Monday, December 31, 2012
In general, I am bit shy and socially awkward. I have icky skin, ugly feet, and unmanageable hair. I am overweight. I am a person that is "okay" at lots of things, but not "good" at anything.
Somehow I was lucky enough to be very confident and happy during adolescence (which unfortunately I know many cannot claim). I joined a ton of teams for sports I had never played before (and did alright), I enjoyed orchestra though I never made first chair, I got good grades but was no valedictorian, and I was in school musicals despite the fact that I couldn't (and can't!) carry a tune in a bucket. And all the while, I had a blast.
Back then, I never focused on any of my flaws or allowed them to stop me from doing something that I wanted to do.
I still think I work well with what I've got. I consider myself attractive, and I consistently work on my heart and head to try and be the best person I can be. I am still quite confident, though as I get older I find my flaws (mostly in relation to health and fitness) are more often at the front of my mind - and holding me back from doing some of the things I'd like to do (like join a gym, settle into a new role at work, try a dance class, go out my door without makeup - lol, etc.).
So my resolution for 2013 is this: Be 16 again. Not the braces or bad fashion of course, but at least parts of the mindset. :) Be fearless. Stay positive. Most importantly, don't let anything hold me back.
This resolution is obviously an idea, not necessarily an actionable goal. But it's a start. And as the year begins, I think maybe writing here (and reading the posts of others) will help work out the actions that will support the idea.
I don't know if any of this rambling actually made sense, but in either case, wish me luck! I will be rooting for everyone and their goals in 2013 as well.
Happy New Year!