Sunday, December 30, 2012
So started SP on 12/10/12, 20 days ago. Lost 7 pounds so far in the first 2 weeks. Of course then we've had the holidays which have thrown me off, mostly 1. not knowing how to count calories on the meals I've been eating, 2. thrown off my exercise schedule on some days, preparing meals and getting house ready for guests, and 3. eating out of my comfort zone.
I think I'm a little afraid, almost like things are going too well and this is when I fail? It's certainly happened so very many many times before. One of the things I really like about SP - and Spark Coach which I signed up for and am using - is the whole emphasis on Consistency. There are going to be set backs, and some not so great days. But weight is not lost or gained by a single meal, or a single day. It's all about consistency. I keep reminding myself of this - which is so different then what I've done before.
Looked in the mirror again today, from afar at the gym, but still, I looked. This all started when I was in the mirror along with everyone else in the NH group, right before our performance. And I saw myself, even though I was trying not to look, I saw myself. In relation to everyone else. And there I was - am - the really fat one. Really fat one. 100 pounds over weight. Obese. Really obese.
But this is what pushed me to start SP the next day. I've been exercising at the gym, cardio, went up to 50 minutes today. Bought weights at Sports Authority this afternoon, 5 pounders, plus 1 8 lb to go with the one I already had.
Stay focused B. Keep going forward. You're doing good, really good. Keep looking in the mirror - you really need to do that, to keep focussed on the goal. And I was really brave and posted a picture of myself from Paris from last year.
So here's to consistency, to really being on the journey, to commitment and courage and staying the course.
More to come.....