Sunday, December 30, 2012
Today feels like a "Much to do about nothing" kind of day. So what do I mean about that. Well.......it's like this. It feels like a "STRANGE" day. I was walking down to work and when I got close I didn't see any cars parked in front of the church. So I thought to myself "is it Sunday"....? When I found the church doors open I felt ok that it was. I went and got things ready for the kids. When it was time for them to come I had no one. I thought is this going to be a day where I have no kids......? Then soon enough the kids started rolling in. I ended up with 8 kids. I had a parent helper. She was so nice to volunteer but she wasn't much help. I felt like I was working all alone. At one point in my work day I felt so out of place. Felt so all alone in a strange place (that is what mental illiness does sometimes). But God got me through that and I went on about my work day. As I was walking home I thought I was going to have a break down. I cried and talked to God. I love chatting with him. He cares for me so much. As I got closer to home I had a plan for me. You see I like to challange myself. I have went 2 months without diet coke and on January 1st I get my reward a 5 lb. weight plate. I want to go next for 3 months (April 1st)without trail mix and give myself another reward. I love see how strong I can become by doing these things. I decided on trail mix as it is one of those things I have trouble leaving alone. When I was almost home I decided to have a date with my treadmill. I figured I should work off the trail mix I ate today as that was part of my "Much to do about nothing" day. I love doing different things on my treadmill. I love the challange. I walk up steep hills. I run a while. I walk holdng my 10 kettlebell. I give myself an adventure by telling myself this story. I am walking along on my treadmill and I see a mean big dog so then I run til the dog is gone. Then I come across a steep hill to walk up awhile. Then I walk down this hill. As I am walking down this hill I come across a snake. I am afraid of them so I run til it's out of site. Then on my walk I come across this 10 lb. weight I carry awhile. I love doing this as it makes my treadmill time less boring. And as I am doing this my classic rock music is playing in the back ground. I do know that my blog might be sounding a little strange but that's ok with me. It makes sence to God and that is all that matters to me. So I am off to my treadmill date. Another "Much to do about nothing" moment. Today is filled with those and to be honest I love those.