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Much to do about nothing.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Today feels like a "Much to do about nothing" kind of day. So what do I mean about that. Well.......it's like this. It feels like a "STRANGE" day. I was walking down to work and when I got close I didn't see any cars parked in front of the church. So I thought to myself "is it Sunday"....? When I found the church doors open I felt ok that it was. I went and got things ready for the kids. When it was time for them to come I had no one. I thought is this going to be a day where I have no kids......? Then soon enough the kids started rolling in. I ended up with 8 kids. I had a parent helper. She was so nice to volunteer but she wasn't much help. I felt like I was working all alone. At one point in my work day I felt so out of place. Felt so all alone in a strange place (that is what mental illiness does sometimes). But God got me through that and I went on about my work day. As I was walking home I thought I was going to have a break down. I cried and talked to God. I love chatting with him. He cares for me so much. As I got closer to home I had a plan for me. You see I like to challange myself. I have went 2 months without diet coke and on January 1st I get my reward a 5 lb. weight plate. I want to go next for 3 months (April 1st)without trail mix and give myself another reward. I love see how strong I can become by doing these things. I decided on trail mix as it is one of those things I have trouble leaving alone. When I was almost home I decided to have a date with my treadmill. I figured I should work off the trail mix I ate today as that was part of my "Much to do about nothing" day. I love doing different things on my treadmill. I love the challange. I walk up steep hills. I run a while. I walk holdng my 10 kettlebell. I give myself an adventure by telling myself this story. I am walking along on my treadmill and I see a mean big dog so then I run til the dog is gone. Then I come across a steep hill to walk up awhile. Then I walk down this hill. As I am walking down this hill I come across a snake. I am afraid of them so I run til it's out of site. Then on my walk I come across this 10 lb. weight I carry awhile. I love doing this as it makes my treadmill time less boring. And as I am doing this my classic rock music is playing in the back ground. I do know that my blog might be sounding a little strange but that's ok with me. It makes sence to God and that is all that matters to me. So I am off to my treadmill date. Another "Much to do about nothing" moment. Today is filled with those and to be honest I love those.
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    How difficult it must be to have such feelings just thrown at you on a whim. What a great thing that you know that you can speak to God about it all and find what it takes to set things right in your world again.
    Hang in there and great job!!
    1906 days ago
    I'm glad the kids showed up, sorry to hear the mom wasn't much help... I guess you could see it as another challenge for the day. I sometimes cry when I'm walking and talk to god or sometimes in the shower... We never know what his plan for us is and when your a good person and you just see people who have evil motives and are always rewarded for being mean it can really bring you down.
    I like the story you tell yourself as your running on the treadmill it keeps you motivated and doesn't sound odd at all.
    Your a great person and good luck with the trail mix challenge! emoticon
    1906 days ago
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