Sunday, December 30, 2012
My house is filled with negative attitudes today... my husband my adult daughter that lives with me are adding so much tension! I have taken control of MY day.... I will not let others take this moment in time away from me their problems will not distroy me any longer!
I listened to a link on mindfulness that my aunt sent to me in an email ... it just made me realise just how much i really need to get back to learning meditation and mindfulness!
Ive stayed busy today and it felt good... i did laundry, i exersiced 40 minutes, i took out the garbage, i made my bed, i listened to music...... and i actually feel like i can avoid the negative energy that surrounds me.
My life is at a point i know im totally stuck ....i cant fix my adult daughters problems she has grown up with a negative attitude from her father that suffers from untreated mental health issues... i cant fix this marriage and yet i cant get out of it due to financail reasons... so i MUST do what i can for me to grow and get healthy myself.
Its been a long time since ive been able to say I do like myself.......i know due to my eating disorder and years of emotional abuse ptsd that i dont love myself at this point but someday i will get to that point.