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Taking Control of this DAY!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

My house is filled with negative attitudes today... my husband my adult daughter that lives with me are adding so much tension! I have taken control of MY day.... I will not let others take this moment in time away from me their problems will not distroy me any longer!

I listened to a link on mindfulness that my aunt sent to me in an email ... it just made me realise just how much i really need to get back to learning meditation and mindfulness!
Ive stayed busy today and it felt good... i did laundry, i exersiced 40 minutes, i took out the garbage, i made my bed, i listened to music...... and i actually feel like i can avoid the negative energy that surrounds me.

My life is at a point i know im totally stuck ....i cant fix my adult daughters problems she has grown up with a negative attitude from her father that suffers from untreated mental health issues... i cant fix this marriage and yet i cant get out of it due to financail reasons... so i MUST do what i can for me to grow and get healthy myself.

Its been a long time since ive been able to say I do like myself.......i know due to my eating disorder and years of emotional abuse ptsd that i dont love myself at this point but someday i will get to that point.
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    1876 days ago
    It's hard with negativity isn't it! I can tell you from experience that YOU CAN get out of a marriage...financially able or not. I know because I DID. I may pinch pennies, I may get a little tearful when my check isn't as much as I had hoped...but I have NEVER been sorry for the choice I made. I am much happier and I only have myself to trust in. My girls are all grown up and yes, sometimes they can be mean and hurtful, but I have the option of accepting their behavior or just simply going home or doing something else. It's a wonderful sense of empowerment that I have control over me and no one else does! I will pray that you find the peace at home or have the strength to do what's best for you! Sounds like you did today already!!! Good luck to you!! I know you will be successful! You sound very strong!!!! :)
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    1876 days ago
    Wow that sounds so similar to me. Adult daughter husband marriage. Am working on changing things one at a time. emoticon
    1876 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    You got YOUR day to you, not them. Once a person is an adult, it is their responsibility to change their behavior.
    Making a change threatens the security of those around us,making them look at themselves., trying to get us back to our old, sick ways. YOU have broken through that sick barrier!! Way to go!!!!!!
    1876 days ago
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