Taking Control of this DAY!
Sunday, December 30, 2012
My house is filled with negative attitudes today... my husband my adult daughter that lives with me are adding so much tension! I have taken control of MY day.... I will not let others take this moment in time away from me their problems will not distroy me any longer!
I listened to a link on mindfulness that my aunt sent to me in an email ... it just made me realise just how much i really need to get back to learning meditation and mindfulness!
Ive stayed busy today and it felt good... i did laundry, i exersiced 40 minutes, i took out the garbage, i made my bed, i listened to music...... and i actually feel like i can avoid the negative energy that surrounds me.
My life is at a point i know im totally stuck ....i cant fix my adult daughters problems she has grown up with a negative attitude from her father that suffers from untreated mental health issues... i cant fix this marriage and yet i cant get out of it due to financail reasons... so i MUST do what i can for me to grow and get healthy myself.
Its been a long time since ive been able to say I do like myself.......i know due to my eating disorder and years of emotional abuse ptsd that i dont love myself at this point but someday i will get to that point.