Sunday, December 30, 2012
While I love Christmas break ( I work in the school system), I am looking forward to the return of my regular routine. I know I have had a lot of trouble this year steering away from tempting foods. I'm a sucker for sweets and salty, savory foods too. Not fast food or prepackaged stuff as a rule, thank goodness, but I really love all the unique homemade things that people make during the holidays. I also enjoy cooking/baking those things myself.
I feel like I've done a good job of keeping lots of healthy choices in my daily routine too, but I know that if I continued to eat the way I am right now, I would be right back on the gain-train in no time at all. Getting on the scale every day has really helped me to continue to gather information on the trends of my weight paired with the habits I'm practicing over this holiday season. I haven't gotten outside of my maintenance range, and I'm happy about that, but I have been doing some reflecting on my previously practiced habits. I feel reasonably confident that I am just practicing some freedom right now, and I'm not just just leaving all my hard work in the dust.
In the past, I would have looked at some of my recent indulgences as reasons to just give up and give in for the long haul- accusing myself of not being able to really make any real change- so why put myself through it?? Well, I know now that I was wrong about that, and I will not let my recent indulgences become regular habits.
I enjoy food too much, and sharing good food with good company is something that still gives me much pleasure, and I refuse to deny myself that pleasure. I just look at it differently in my new life- these events are occasional- not the rule. I don't beat myself up for indulging in special meals, and I do as much as I can to plan ahead for the splurge- I check online menus/nutritional information before going to a meal out. I bring healthy choices as my contribution to a potluck style celebration, and I take advantage of opportunities to get in extra activity as much as I can.
The last two years, during the holiday season, I have been more restrictive with myself than I have been this year. I was also in lose mode then- not maintenance. My goal during the 2010 and 2011 holiday seasons was to NOT gain, and to possibly continue to experience small loss- which I did. This year, now that I've met my goal, I planned to stay no more than 5 pounds over my goal, and I have stayed under that mark, so I am really happy with that! My confidence in my ability to continue to enjoy my life and maintain my new healthy weight has continued to grow. Finding balance between freedom to indulge some and not crossing the line into oblivious abandon has been a challenge, but I have had success with it these last few weeks.
I am less than two months from my one year maintenance anniversary, and it seems almost surreal to even be able to say that after 20 years of cycling through :lose some, gain it back, gain more, repeat.