Sunday, December 30, 2012
I had given up on myself - again. I realized I was hurting, emotionally and physically and have just come from my own retreat to regroup. I gained weight, hated myself and didn't make time to work out. What I want most out of life is to feel passion for life, eat healthy and mostly laco/ovo vegetarian, write and live in the West. I feel like all I have done in the last year is settle and sell myself short. I do not know how I am going to make the changes I want and need to make but this time it's for me. Selfish or not, it has to happen. The only other alternative is to die before quit living physically.
I will have no regrets at the end of my life and will move forward in this knowledge.
Today I went to Cumberland Transit here in town and found out how much a good road bike cost, biathalon shoes and backpack/tent. The canoe will have to come after I get another car! It is all affordable with good budgeting so no matter where I live it will come in handy!