Saturday, December 29, 2012
This week was kinda crapola, just felt weak and nasty for no reason. Well part of it could be that lifting class I took which left me sore for 3 days!!!! Went over a week without running. Finally got a run in today. I kept telling myself that even if I was not gonna run outside than I better run on a dreadmill. That lit a fire under me cuz I ran 3 miles today, just had to start in the middle of the trail instead of the icey neighborhoods. The air was thin and I forgot my music at home. I was thinking of going back home and getting it but no I just went and did it. Excuses excuses excuses, I am not giving in to u sometimes your meant to listen to your heavy breathing. I hit a WERQ class last night too. I was pretty weak and blah for that as well. Intense classes falling at the end of a long work week is never a great idea. But I stayed and I did my dardest and that's all you got to give somedays. I usually see exercise as all or nothing but I gotta stop looking at it that way. Some is better than none, you are never letting yourself down if u get yourself to the gym or get yourself out on that trail. It's all a win win.
I think it's just that fear in me of getting set back and losing my tolerance to run or dance or whatever. How hard it is to start all over again and get past that hard period of "Why the hell am I doing this? This sucks!". For running that periods takes awhile and sometimes it sneaks back on us even after yrs of being avid runners.
Still working on eating better again. My coworker gave me this sandwich yesterday she couldn't eat cuz it was chicken salad instead of tuna. I had every intent of taking it home and leaving it for Scott. But no I devoured it in the car. I wasn't even hungry and I was going to my WERQ class in like 30 minutes. I can't have food in my presence without devouring it. Even a gross deli sandwich lol Scott probably wondered why I insisted on salad for dinner when he really wanted to order a pizza last night. Stupid, should have told him to get a meat lovers, I wont have touched that.