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I may fall down but I'll never stay down

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Saturday, December 29, 2012



Today is emoticon of my current streak!

On March 1, 2012, I decided that I was sick of being obese, unhealthy, lazy, uninspired and unmotivated. I was sick of being embarrassed by how I looked, sick of breathing hard with just the slightest bit of exertion, sick of my back and knees hurting all the time. I was so tired of being uncomfortable in my own body whether I was sitting, standing or laying down. I was tired of feeling bad ALL of the time.

I decided it was time to join my Sparkfriends Arlene and Debbie, trying to build a streak of good days in a row. I didn't know if it would work for me, or if I would be able to get beyond day one. But I knew I had to try. Doing nothing was getting me nowhere, so what did I have to lose by at least making an attempt to change things?

So I started. I was totally committed to just getting through that first day. I woke up on March first and I got out my personal journal and I planned my meals and snacks for the day. Then I went into the living room and I worked out with My Fitness Coach for Wii. I weighed 286 lbs, and was so out of shape! In less that two minutes (no exxageration) I was out of breath, sweating, and wanting to just go sit down or have a snack. It would have been so easy to quit, but I kept pushing myself. I worked out for 15 minutes, and for that entire time, I wanted to give up.

Part of me was saying "Just stop....you can try again tomorrow."

But there was another voice saying "You know that if you quit now, it will be MONTHS before you start again, and you know it!"

So I kept going, and I got through that 15 minute workout. And when I was done, there was a new feeling, one I hadn't had in a long, long time. I was PROUD of myself! I felt such a wonderful sense of accomplishment and...hope. I had worked out! I'd persevered! Yes, it was only 15 minutes, but I did it! I stood there in my living room, breathing heavy, my shirt stuck to my back from sweat, and I couldn't stop smiling. And I knew that I wanted to feel this way again!

That was the moment when my streak really began. And from that small beginning, I worked my way up to more and more days in a row. I worked my way up from 15 minutes of exercise a day to 30, to 45, to 90.

I got to day 290 of my streak two weeks ago...and then I got off track. I was disappointed in myself, but I didn't waste time beating myself up over it. I didn't let one bad day lead to two bad days or a bad week (or bad month.) I got right back on track...and this time my streak lasted for 13 days.





Yesterday, I got off track again. I binged on a LOT of food, to the point of feeling sick. And when I went to bed last night, I was feeling very remorseful and angry with myself. But today is a new day, and the start of another new streak. I got up this morning and I worked out! I did two 30 minute DDP Yoga workouts, and then I had a healthy breakfast. I planned my food for the day, and so far I have been on track. I just finished a 30 minute Zumba workout, and I feel great! Yesterday was a bad day, but it was just ONE day. Today is a good day...and yes, thats just ONE day too, but I'm determined to keep going, to day two, day three and beyond.



I don't know how long this streak will last, but one thing I do know is that I will never give up. I may fall down, but I will never stay down. I'm not the same person I was before I started streaking in March. I am strong, determined and healthy. Not perfect, but definitely making progress!



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SUEZAM1 12/30/2012 6:13PM

  Way to go!

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SBARGANZ 12/30/2012 6:03PM

    Thanks for sharing. I'm right there with ya!

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IAMAGEMLOVER 12/30/2012 6:02PM

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JUDYAASH 12/30/2012 5:47PM

    I think your blog applies to all of us. We keep falling down but get right back up. Thank you for putting it in words

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MARYJEANSL 12/30/2012 5:46PM

  All you can ever do it pick yourself up and try again...all you can do and the very best you can do. Congratulations!! You are a winner again and again and again.

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DETERMINED_ME 12/30/2012 5:24PM

    emoticon on getting back on track!!

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THOMS1 12/30/2012 5:08PM

    Very good blog. Calidreamer is so right when she says to find a healthy middle ground. That is where I have my trouble also. I get so far and try to eat like a normal person and I don't mean overeat but say a normal dinner consisting of meat, potatoes a vegetable and maybe a dessert? Well I will gain on that and that is using portion control. I think that this is my life and I have to do what I have to do to keep my weight down. It is a life journey after all. I wish you success with your streaks. emoticon

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PATRICIAANN46 12/30/2012 5:01PM

  Hi Pixie........
emoticon for another encouraging blog. None of us are perfect and it is so uplifting to hear about your experiences and the fact that you refuse to give up. emoticon

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MACANBEFIT 12/30/2012 4:51PM

    Great Blog! Thanks for posting. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DURANGOREDDOG 12/30/2012 4:26PM

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NOTSOFLUFFYDAD 12/30/2012 4:13PM

    Thanks for sharing

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GLORIAMAJDI 12/30/2012 3:34PM

    Love this, motivated me to keep pushing! emoticon

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CHERYLSBUTT 12/30/2012 3:33PM

    Go down is a part of getting up!
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We believe in your dreams!

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FRAN0426 12/30/2012 3:24PM

    Great attitude you will succeed. The only failure is when we don't keep trying, even after we get off track.

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DANILYNNG 12/30/2012 3:12PM

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FIT4MEIN2013 12/30/2012 3:10PM

    Excellent! We all fall; failure is not getting back up. You have learned the message well. emoticon

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HONEYFITZ109 12/30/2012 3:07PM

    Great message!!

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PORTIAWILLIS 12/30/2012 3:06PM

    Way to go

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GUITARWOMAN 12/30/2012 2:57PM

    Wonderful message and motivation.

Thanks!

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NILLAPEPSI 12/30/2012 2:28PM

    Good for you!! Today is a new day. emoticon

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LTMURPHY7 12/30/2012 2:28PM

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SUPERACHIEVER 12/30/2012 2:11PM

    Hey, hey, hey, you are an inspiration to me. Where there's a will, there's a way. I've hit a snag but I'm going to follow your lead and perservere. I want this weight loss more than anything and it's worth it for me to put the effort forth that's needed!

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IREN0169 12/30/2012 2:02PM

    Thanks for such an inspiring blog. I too am going through somewhat of the same thing so I appreciate knowing that there is hope out there!

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CHANGING-TURTLE 12/30/2012 1:59PM

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GIRLINMOTION 12/30/2012 1:49PM

    Right on! Way to go. A healthy attitude will get you farther than a bad day.

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KNYAGENYA 12/30/2012 1:27PM

    Thank you so much for this blog. I have been beating myself all week for the weight gain I had this week (.8). This helped me get things in to perspective and move on.

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MARITIMER3 12/30/2012 1:10PM

    I've slipped up way too often. I admire your commitment, and am adding you as a friend because I want to follow your journey.

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MAVERICK59 12/30/2012 12:53PM

    You have gained a lot of knowledge about yourself on this journey. This knowledge will see you through to the end.

Best of luck,
Belinda

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CALIDREAMER76 12/30/2012 12:53PM

    Good Luck, but also work towards finding Healthy middle ground. That's where I'm having my problem - been diligent going on 6 years and as soon as I let my guard down and try to be a "normal" person the weight starts to return and I feel like a failure.
I will refocus and get diligent again, as my BFF told me the other night I'm too stubborn not to. But sometimes a person just gets tired of it all.
Find a way to let yourself enjoy the lifestyle too.

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ALIDOSHA 12/30/2012 12:49PM

    emoticon emoticon as one said "hasten slowly"! Happy New year!

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JEANNETTE59 12/30/2012 12:36PM

  emoticon Just remember there is no challenge in easy, and if it was easy everyone would do it!

Great Blog!

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TERMITEMOM 12/30/2012 12:31PM

    What an inspiring and encouraging blog, PIxie! You are -as always- a wonderful motivator! You go, girl! And may we go along with you, too.

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CINDYCHARLENE 12/30/2012 12:23PM

    I am sure you don't need another person to tell you what a great blog this is, because IT IS, but I just had to tell you how much I appreciate it because day before yesterday I went on a binger and it really put my BP up, and too, probably because I beat myself up royally for doing it. I thought how many times will God forgive me for falling down when I know what it does to me and I just choose to conveniently forget so I can indulge myself. Your blog helped me see how foolish I was to beat myself up and doubt God's never ending mercy in the process. Satan really wants us to give up the ship and just let it sink. Sometimes it seems it would just be so much easier that way but then what would I gain? MISERY! I must forgive myself for being human, (Christ already did) and pick myself up, brush myself off and start all over again. You did it and I can too and I WILL (beginning yesterday).

I saw a neat quote this morning (with an advertisement) that touched me. "This is a day to stop focusing on what you want to lose and start focusing on what you want to gain." I want to gain peace, health, happiness, love and all those the things I was so sure in the beginning of my quest would be my reward if I lost weight. So in 2013 I am sure success will be seen as I keep my eye on my reward and believe I have it already because I am doing those things which will lead me to it. Thank you again for being you.

How about if I join you in streaking with my elimination of refined foods. Today will be day two for me.
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KARRENLYNN 12/30/2012 12:20PM

    You have the right attitude! You're looking at it as a lifestyle choice, not a temporary weight loss project with a finite end date. This way, you can have a bad choice, day, binge etc and it won't derail your whole progress. You can start from where you are and keep moving forward.

Great job Pixie, you can do it!

Karen

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JANESLOSS 12/30/2012 12:15PM

    Pixie,
Your blog gives me hope that I too can get back on track. The exercise is going OK, but I need to get my food back under control. My streak is about exercise, but it really should be about food.
Thank you for always having a positive attitude, even when you slip. We are just human after all!

Big Hugs,

Jane

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LITTLE_QUEEN 12/30/2012 12:10PM

    LOVE YA SIS

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CAMSEDGE 12/30/2012 12:09PM

    I like your attitude emoticon

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AVWCHLOE 12/30/2012 12:04PM

  That's exactly where I am...hanging on one day at a time! Thanks for the encouraging comments!


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MSPATOOTY 12/30/2012 11:58AM

    You've got a great attitude! And it's contagious! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WEEPINGANGEL74 12/30/2012 11:41AM

    Way to go!!! And excellent attitude!! Keep up the great work and positive can-do attitude!

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HOWIEANN 12/30/2012 11:39AM

    Thanks for the reminder... sometimes we almost have to take it minute by minute. :)

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MECHELLE2207 12/30/2012 11:35AM

    Great blog. I have had a similar experience this year. I started strong, lost a lot of weight, but regained it towards the end of the year. I am committed to not wasting another day with regret. I'm not waiting until January 1, 2013. I want to end this year on a good note.

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BELTONWALKER67 12/30/2012 11:34AM

    Fantastic Blog! emoticon One Day At A Time!

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