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I may fall down but I'll never stay down


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Saturday, December 29, 2012



Today is emoticon of my current streak!

On March 1, 2012, I decided that I was sick of being obese, unhealthy, lazy, uninspired and unmotivated. I was sick of being embarrassed by how I looked, sick of breathing hard with just the slightest bit of exertion, sick of my back and knees hurting all the time. I was so tired of being uncomfortable in my own body whether I was sitting, standing or laying down. I was tired of feeling bad ALL of the time.

I decided it was time to join my Sparkfriends Arlene and Debbie, trying to build a streak of good days in a row. I didn't know if it would work for me, or if I would be able to get beyond day one. But I knew I had to try. Doing nothing was getting me nowhere, so what did I have to lose by at least making an attempt to change things?

So I started. I was totally committed to just getting through that first day. I woke up on March first and I got out my personal journal and I planned my meals and snacks for the day. Then I went into the living room and I worked out with My Fitness Coach for Wii. I weighed 286 lbs, and was so out of shape! In less that two minutes (no exxageration) I was out of breath, sweating, and wanting to just go sit down or have a snack. It would have been so easy to quit, but I kept pushing myself. I worked out for 15 minutes, and for that entire time, I wanted to give up.

Part of me was saying "Just stop....you can try again tomorrow."

But there was another voice saying "You know that if you quit now, it will be MONTHS before you start again, and you know it!"

So I kept going, and I got through that 15 minute workout. And when I was done, there was a new feeling, one I hadn't had in a long, long time. I was PROUD of myself! I felt such a wonderful sense of accomplishment and...hope. I had worked out! I'd persevered! Yes, it was only 15 minutes, but I did it! I stood there in my living room, breathing heavy, my shirt stuck to my back from sweat, and I couldn't stop smiling. And I knew that I wanted to feel this way again!

That was the moment when my streak really began. And from that small beginning, I worked my way up to more and more days in a row. I worked my way up from 15 minutes of exercise a day to 30, to 45, to 90.

I got to day 290 of my streak two weeks ago...and then I got off track. I was disappointed in myself, but I didn't waste time beating myself up over it. I didn't let one bad day lead to two bad days or a bad week (or bad month.) I got right back on track...and this time my streak lasted for 13 days.





Yesterday, I got off track again. I binged on a LOT of food, to the point of feeling sick. And when I went to bed last night, I was feeling very remorseful and angry with myself. But today is a new day, and the start of another new streak. I got up this morning and I worked out! I did two 30 minute DDP Yoga workouts, and then I had a healthy breakfast. I planned my food for the day, and so far I have been on track. I just finished a 30 minute Zumba workout, and I feel great! Yesterday was a bad day, but it was just ONE day. Today is a good day...and yes, thats just ONE day too, but I'm determined to keep going, to day two, day three and beyond.



I don't know how long this streak will last, but one thing I do know is that I will never give up. I may fall down, but I will never stay down. I'm not the same person I was before I started streaking in March. I am strong, determined and healthy. Not perfect, but definitely making progress!



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CATNCAG 9/4/2013 10:30AM

    That is awesome! U totally inspire me! I'm going to have to breakdown & do an exercise streak!!!
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FITMOMINNJ 1/14/2013 7:36AM

    Love it, all of us stumble.Those that get back up again are the champs:) emoticon

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NLYR20 1/8/2013 12:49PM

  Great approach. It's inspiring to me. Starting my streak from this morning. Your blog is motivating me to go forward. emoticon

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SJKENT1 1/5/2013 10:05PM

    Putting one foot in front of the other...

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ELLDOCKE 1/3/2013 12:59PM

    Thanks for motivating me to start a streak. emoticon And, to keep starting a new streak every time I screw up.

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CUINPARADISE 1/2/2013 10:50PM

    You're an inspiration for all of us to just keep pushing forward!
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FOREVERFITCHICK 1/2/2013 11:25AM

    This is the post I needed....Day 1 of new Streaks!

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SFREY217 1/2/2013 8:39AM

    Thank you for sharing your inspirational story. I really needed it this morning !

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PENOWOK 1/2/2013 8:11AM

    I sure love your post-its and your postings!! You are right on target...no need to be mad at yourself for yesterday, only be smarter today!!

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PINKNFITCARLA 1/1/2013 10:50PM

    Thanks for sharing and for inspiring me to begin another streak!

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JUSTDOINGIT101 1/1/2013 4:22PM

    Day one looks like day WON to me! Excellent post.

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SHARONSIZE8 1/1/2013 1:05PM

    Your blog has inspired me to begin a Spark streak of my own. Thanks for sharing your struggles and victories!!! You are such an encouragement and inspiration to me!!!
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MARYGOLD5 1/1/2013 12:35PM

    Thanks for a great blog. emoticon I too have lapses at times, but each day is a chance for a new beginning.

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CUSH1932 1/1/2013 7:29AM

    emoticon emoticon thanks for the inspiration.

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DEEBREW6 12/31/2012 11:15PM

    emoticon blog! I felt like I was there with you! emoticon You will win!

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LAWANDMUSIC 12/31/2012 9:08PM

    Failure? NOT!! We pick ourselves up and carry on!!

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MANDAROSE80 12/31/2012 8:36PM

    emoticon Awesome streak! And even better keep going! Thanks for the inspiration!

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BEBOP4ME 12/31/2012 4:37PM

    emoticon Good for you! emoticon

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TPETRIE 12/31/2012 4:06PM

  Nice job. Keep up the good work.

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IMAGINE46 12/31/2012 1:47PM

  Excellent blog. Very inspiring!

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HLOCHRIDGE 12/31/2012 1:20PM

    Love this blog!!! emoticon emoticon

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BARBARAWEBSTER 12/31/2012 12:46PM

    I loved this! I've been "off" the wagon for months, and now ready to start over because I've gained so much weight back! THANKS FOR THE MOTIVATION!!!

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LELERS 12/31/2012 11:44AM

    Nice! I love your motivation and pep talk abilities! emoticon

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FIRECOM 12/31/2012 11:11AM

    Incredibly inspiring. Thank you.

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BRANDIM_81 12/31/2012 10:51AM

    If you have never failed you have never lived.

Way to go on getting back up and not going back to the place you were. The only real defeat is becoming the people we are trying to forget about. The fat, unhappy, unsatisfied, embarrassed, tired, unmotivated people we were. You obviously are not going back there! Way to be a motivator! Thank you for the blog!

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MOMOSG 12/31/2012 10:37AM

    Congratulations on picking yourself up right away and not wasting time lamenting over it! That is very hard to do.

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LJOYCE55 12/31/2012 10:32AM

  Thank you for sharing your ups and downs and how you coped with it. It nice to read that we all have small failures along the way.

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L1ZB3TH354 12/31/2012 10:18AM

    emoticon emoticon So proud of you Pixie!

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JMARISK 12/31/2012 9:59AM

    Two "bad" days over the course of 300....WOW! I wish I could manage that feat. You are amazing. Thank you for reminding me that it is possible. We can surprise ourselves and nothing beats that feeling of pride after a workout.

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KATIWONT 12/31/2012 9:53AM

    No one is perfect, except the Almighty. You are doing exactly the right thing, with exactly the right attitude while inspiring us all. Happy New Year!! (and thanks!)

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1STARVINGARTIST 12/31/2012 9:24AM

    You have amazing determination and a great positive attitude. You are going to be successful! Thanks for an inspirational and encouraging blog.
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emoticon for your honesty and inspiration. Yes each day is a new chance to start again.
You emoticon and I know you will be successful in your journey.
Merry New Year and keep on SPARKing !
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