Saturday, December 29, 2012
Here I am, at the start of this journey, it's a little intimidating. I've been here before, but i've never committed myself 100%, that changes today. I have my emotional self under control and that means now I can get my physical self under control. Turns out I have ADD and depression. ADD causes impulsivity when not controlled and now i understand why I would eat something and then realize later that it was a bad idea. My depression led to emotional eating which went hand and hand with the impulsive nature. Now I feel good, and i feel strong, and I feel like I can make the changes I need to in order to become the person I want to be, the person I need to be for my children and my husband. I've never been thin, even when I was young, and I'm realizing that the years and years of damage I've done to my body and self esteem will not be a quick fix. I need to change the life I live, the way I eat, the things I choose to do. Sweets need to be out of my house, I need to stick to menus so that eating out isn't an option, and when eating out is an option I pick the better options. I'm excited to start this journey and cannot wait to see where I will end up. I am excited to change my life and the habits I've created and make a better life for my family so that hopefully my children will never have to deal with being overweight as it is not a life I would choose for them. So here I go ready to give my all and see what comes from it.