No more waiting for tomorrow
Saturday, December 29, 2012
At my heaviest weight, I was 338 lbs. After the end of a 9 year relationship and marriage, I was able to eat nutritiously and exercise my way to 215 lbs in early 2010. I completed a 5K run in a snow storm in April 2010! That was the highlight for me! I was also able to compete again in rugby; a sport I enjoyed thoroughly as a teenager.
Spring 2010 marked the end of another 9 year relationship-this one with school. I finished my degree and moved back to my home city and started working. I had mastered the "career" of student, but now I was facing a new set of stresses. I also moved in with a man that I had fallen in love with in the summer of 2009. He treats me the way I believe a man should treat a woman-with respect, support and consideration. I know I have met my soul mate and we are destined to have a great life together. We bought our first home together in April 2012 and are going to be married in early 2014.
Life is pretty great! My boss is wonderful, my co-workers are amazing, my fiancée is fabulous...problem is, my weight has climbed back up to 284 lbs. How did this happen? I could list a dozen "excuses" but I've decided not this time. What's the point? Excuses do not create a plan. Excuses allow you to say "it's o.k. where I am at", "it's o.k. that I did not make healthy choices and continue with a healthy lifestyle". You know what? It is NOT o.k. Somewhere in the last two and a half years, I've lost my way. There is no point in making excuses. I understand where I have gone wrong, and I forgive myself for these misgivings. These are very important steps you must take in order to change your life. Once you can understand where you've gone wrong, then forgive yourself for your misgivings, the rest is easy! Take some time to do a little research, and formulate a plan with steps that will help you reach your goal.
My plan is this: my mother and I have joined tai chi twice per week in January. This will be important for flexibility, but most importantly for my mental well being. I've realize I do not have a good outlet to relax and refocus. I believe that tai chi will give me this mental health balance that I so crave. I am also joining a Sunday spin class and a weekly swim group. These will be appointments I make with myself and I will keep these times sacred as I do not want to wake up the next day and have to forgive myself again. In addition to these appointments, I will join my fiancée at the gym three to four times per week. On the days I work 12 hours, I will do a circuit in our home gym that we are building. This home gym only consists of a weight bench, some floor mats, and a few dumbbells, but it is a start! However, all you really need to burn calories is your body and movement. An example of a home circuit will be:
Home Circuit 1 – 10 reps each, rest 1 min. Repeat twice and try to beat time.
Quick lunges (10/leg)
V-up toe touches
As for nutrition, I know how to eat well. I learned over many years of “dieting” what works best for me, and this is to not focus on what I “can” and “cannot” eat, but rather to focus on making choices that promote good health, energy and focus. I will allow myself a treat from time to time. I do not like to call these “cheats” as that has a dirty or bad context in my mind and I do not consider these treats as a bad choice, but rather a necessity to preserve my mental health and keep impulses at bay. I will not plan for these treats but rather allow myself one or two small ones per week and make adjustments to my nutrition as needed.
Now I need to determine a “time factor”. It is important to set measurable short term, intermediate and long term goals with rewards along the way. My first short term goal is to burn the first 10 lbs by January 30th. My reward will be a massage that will help to rejuvenate my body and mind. My long term goal is to burn 115 lbs by my 31st birthday on November 24th. My reward will be a $1000 shopping spree and day at the spa. I have already started saving for this reward! My intermediate goals will be more fluid depending on how my short term goals progress. These include: completing another 5K run, completing a sprint distance triathlon, and sky diving!
I have not been less than 200 lbs since I was in the 6th grade. I am a tall woman at just over 6 feet, but my joints are showing the wear and tear of carrying so much extra weight for so many years. I’ve got “significant arthritis in my knees and back for someone [my] age” as one doctor put it earlier this year. Having turned 30 this November, I’ve realized I need to stop waiting for tomorrow and start my journey today. I’ve had enough of mediocrity and of being restricted in this body that won’t move as fast or as agile as it did even two short years ago! I want to achieve my health, weight, and mental health goals before I have children so that I can be a good role model for them. I want to achieve these goals for my fiancée as he deserves to be with someone as vibrant and happy and loving as himself. Most importantly, I want to achieve these goals for myself as I deserve to live the life of good physical health and happiness that I have always dreamed. I look forward to this journey!